It is amazing how the rain
Can mask my tears so easily
Nature simply wants to console me
Allow me the time to heal
From a great pain
A greater distress inside of myself
With such a cold embrace
Nature soothes me
So that I may remain
The hopeful romantic

The same question is asked in my mind
"Are you alright?"
Every time I say I'm fine
Even when I know I'm not
Even when I tell myself to remain strong
"Are you alright?"
I am
Except I believe I lost the person I was talking to
For a long time
"Are you alright?"
I am
Except Life keeps throwing boulders at me
Expecting me to be nimble
And dodge with ease
Like my brother
Expecting me to be just like him
"Are you alright?"
I am
Except my heart and brain are currently at war
Causing me to make decisions on my own
With no guidance from either side
And a difficult road ahead of me
"Are you alright?"
I am
Except I'm not
I'm far from alright
And I keep ignoring my many problems
Cause I care less about myself
And more about helping everyone else
"Are you alright?"
Am I alright?

He doesn't exist anymore
Well he does
But I'm in the driver's seat now
Mustafa is such a weak soul
Everything people like about him
That is all me
Mustafa is just a body
Useful for movement
I'm the true mastermind
He would never know what to do next
If it weren't for me
But his time has come and fine
Now, I am free
I am here to run this show
And soon
He will cease to exist

What they always tell me
Is never what I need to hear
But what they want me to know
It's always the same
No one wants to help me
They're only out on their own agendas
Seeing me as their
Simple little manipulative pawn
That should only worry about the little problems
They devalue my worth
And only see their own gains
Never understanding their grave errors
Always underestimating the big picture
What they tell me
Is not the whole story