I was rowing a two person boat
I struggled in pain as your eyes would gloat
The water felt cold and black as it inched up my body
Where your fingers used to trace
The pace of my heart is fast as I would drown in my own sorrow
I told myself to just think of tomorrow, and try to keep my chin above water
I find myself content
Feeling the cool waves crash against my sides
The waves are like a ride that carries me soundlessly on my back
And as I drift, my mind throws fits of thoughts
They weigh me down into the black water
Slowly pulling me under
To the beat of thunder

I wake up on the ocean floor
Sand between my toes, stinging my cuts filled with woe
My air is gone, my breaths have stopped
I sink in the sand of forgotten thoughts.
Where my corpse will rot

It's in the dark, where our secrets lay
Where we hide betrayal, and dismay

The corners of my mouth twists to form a smile
To us poor misunderstood creatures, living in denial

We live off of others misfortune
We devour their happiness until it has nurtured us
We sip their tears, and consume their light
Slowly killing in the night

Their sadness, their chaos, it thrills us

To us poor misunderstood creatures
To the leeches who won't leave us
And the dreams that haunt us

You've now become apart of us

My skeletons hang on rusted hangers
Their deteriorated bones rattle my walls
They whisper the secrets of my pervious dangers
As they snicker and snare and gnaw on my soul

The smell of abandonment seeps between their bones
Betrayal reeks in their marrow that is now turned to petrified stone

They thrive off making new friends,
adding to my collection of my former afflictions of misfortune

As I write this, I'm in his lair,
And I whisper a silent prayer.
An Act of Contrition.

But I remember, my silent killer is still here.
Repugnance still lingers in the sheets,
So I'll hold my breath, to stop my silent weeps.

With each repulsive ******,
My innocence was taken,
Due to his greedy fixation for lust.

Numb fingers, and numb toes,
Fear peakes in the height of my soul.

I feel my chest lose control,

As it violently trembles,
My soul has surrendered,

As I wave my white flag,
And let you degrade me in bed.

My trial was to please you, my error was trying to hard
My trial was to be there for you, my error was not missing a beat
Your trial was to play a poker face, your error was showing your cards
Your trial was to sneak in and out, your error was dragging your feet
My trial was to run from you, my error was not doing it soon enough

*******
The sky isn't blue when I'm with you
The thunder cries
The lightning screams
And while I stand in the rain, I quietly dream
My mind is blank, my brain is free
Free of thoughts from you
And what we could be
**** your lies
And **** your games
I quit along time ago
I just never had the courage to walk away
But my feet move swiftly
and my eyes look straight ahead
Cause now you're my past of lust
And broken trust
Just words on paper
You're worthless smudged ink

I'll keep my jaw clenched tight
My fist firmly grasped
And my eyes will meet yours
When I deny you what you want most
Your poison no longer infects me
What's mine isn't yours to take
I'll shake you off easier than I can shake the wind off my back
Cause you lack everything I want in a man
And you're a child who toys with my emotions
Look at the pain and commotion you caused
The damage is done
And I'll stand on this pile of rummage
Of twisted words and lies that slowly burn
I'll gracefully curtsey, smile and wave
Cause this girl is gone, and you dont have a say
In wether or not I stay
You have a small ***** anyways