I’m lying
I think about you every day
And the memories I’m trying
To forget I’ll say
I don’t miss you anymore
But I’m lying

You seemed to care even less
Reckless drinking, driving and snorting whatever you could find
I was a huge mess
You didn’t really mind
Or worry about how I was feeling
I was scared for you
I knew you weren’t dealing
With his death, the loss of a best friend
It still makes me sad, I miss him so much
Right after it happened, then came our end
I remember our last touch
That still makes me sad too

I often dream of you
Us having fun, happy as can be
Our friends around us too
The one we lost we finally see
I awake and become sad
Because that used to be reality
I don’t feel too bad
I left for many reasons, in actuality
I needed room to breathe, to be free
Loving me seemed like a chore
Was it hard to love me?
I feel like I loved you more

I knew it was over when I felt lonely with you
Always worrying if we were gonna make it
I wonder if you worried about that too
Beer and cigarettes is what I would get
To cope with the fear of losing my best friend
You really were my favorite guy
I never wanted us to end
Kinda wish I never said hi
But it’s over now
I guess for the best
I’ve been moving on, not sure how
I miss sleeping with my head on your chest

I remember hurting when you hurt
Laughing when you laughed
I saw sadness in your eyes
But purity in your heart
I don’t think you meant to do what you did
I forgive you for the pain
And I thank you for being there when you were
I know I left in a hurry
But I could feel you slipping away again
Drugs were your good friend
And I couldn’t win

I look at our old pictures and cry
Sometimes I laugh
Because I was so naive to your lie
My heart you had half
I wanted you to be forever mine
But you didn’t seem to care
Never asked if I was fine
That’s not really fair
All I cared about was your well-being
My own not so much
We’re not meant to be, now I’m seeing
Even though I craved your touch
I still do

You weren’t hard to love
You made me feel like I was
But you were hard to leave
It still hurts, it does
But I’m starting to heal now
The memories are slowly fading
Slowly but surely I’m forgetting you
But I do miss when we started dating
We had so many good times
A lot of bad too though
Those ones I won’t forget for awhile
They make me feel so low