Silly me to think that you were able to change and be a better person,
silly me for thinking that you would forget about her.
Silly me, for seeing the best in you,
even when you gave me no reason to.

Silly me, for letting you **** me in,
only to spit me out once you got what you wanted.
Silly me for telling you what you wanted to hear,
all for you to just throw me away like an old T-shirt.

Silly me for letting you get inside my head and eat up every ounce of my being.
Silly me for forgiving you and letting you break my heart all over again.
Silly me for missing you.

I can't keep my hands to myself when it comes to you. Your touch, your laugh and the way you kiss my hips. Your grip on my *** while your kiss me down my neck & the way you bite your lip. The way you pull me closer and the way you push me against the wall while and kiss me while everyone's watching.

i thought i was strong enough to resist you like i did that night on the dance floor. I though i could see you and everything would be fine, but the ******* second you walked through that door, my eyes couldn't focus on anyone but you.
The moment your arms wrapped around me and your lips hit my cheek, I knew I was weak.

I miss you.
I miss hearing your voice at 1am telling me pointless stories. I miss your laugh at 3pm making fun of my endless complaints. I miss your constant messages filling my phone. I miss the way you look on FaceTime at 10 at night. I miss your kisses on my forehead and even more the way you bite my lip. I miss feeling your hands around my waist. I miss the way you looked at me like I was your everything. I miss our empty conversations filled with giggles and smirks. I miss your hands in mine and your lips on mine. I miss your ring on my finger and you in my heart. I miss playing games with you. I miss that night on the couch with your body against mine. I miss fighting with you over absolutely nothing. But most of all I miss our endless, pointless and playful conversations.

Leaving me was the worst thing you ever did.

How did we end up like this? When did things change and turn into these empty conversations & broken promises? Why did you let everything we ever built come crashing down in seconds? Since when did you decide to walk away and leave me here without an explanation? Leaving me here to second guess myself & every choice I've ever made? Why would you be so oblivious to everything I ever told you? I never lied when I told you how I felt so why would you pretend it didn't happen? How could you run away as soon as things got complicated, just pack up and leave? How could you this to me?

Do you think that it is okay to **** me in and then without even a second thought, spit me right out? Do you think that it is okay to rip the life out from under my feet without even a simple explanation? Or the way you took my breath away and gave it to another girl? Do you think I was fine when you told me how important I was or how you never wanted to lose me, yet you threw me away without a second thought? You never knew how your actions impacted other people, but you better learn for the future because I hope to God you don't **** up any other girls the way you ****** me up.