little white flowers,
fallen to the ground,
her small silent cries,
are no where to be found.
he sees her there all alone,
but no where near her does he go..

justin; i know you might not read this;
but your faith is my bliss !?
youre what i miss....
(friendship wise)
a relationship wasted our time;
so please just admit
i never meant ****
you took me in
thinking you could fool me;
but i wish you could have told me
you made me smolder
when i wish you just let me burn;
but what can i do now
that lesson's learned
and never again will i say those words
to you;
but you say them
to her..

i cant even think straight anymore?
this is the first time im writing with out you to write back.
but why would you care?
you didnt want to write back in the first place?
why would i care about what you thought when i clicked the publish button?
electricity ran through my heart waiting for you to comment.
yeah; **** it.... i dont want to write poems any more.
because of you.

i know i say that you are the worst thing to ever happen to me and that i wish to replace you;
but all i felt was friendship with you; when you kissed me.... you had no emotion;
when you held me close to you; i couldnt even feel you breathe....
i know that it doesnt matter now; but did i ever meant a single thing to you?
i lost you as the one i loved;
dont let me lose you as a friend....

you have deprived me of everything that i have ever had with you or any other person that i have had time to get close with. so one more thing cannot hurt me anymore than you have already;
all i ask is you leave me be,
so i do not have to be reminded of our yesterdays..
i wish to forget you and....
i wish to flee this place;
because every time i glance around,
i am drowned by the memory of you.
these thoughts haunt me..
and they keep me from moving forward....
so all i ask is you stay out of everything i do right and everything that does me wrong.

if you can catch me; then please be my guest....
open your arms and cushion my fall.
dont give me that false hope;
like you gave every other girl....
when you say i love you;
i want you to mean it....
when you hold me close to you;
and kiss me..
as you hold my waist;
and i wrap my arms around your shoulders;
dont just think about how you like me because i like you;
think about why i mean so much to you;
then as we lay in bed;
your body covering mine like a blanket;
dont just count my breaths as you go;
realize i dont want this to end;

I sat today and thought over a thousand times about this.
It has been roaming in my mind for the past day or two.
I just wish that there was a much easier way that I could tell you.
I wish that you would automatically know when you look at me.
But that is not an option in this.
I wish that there was one hundred hours in the day so I could sit
in the oak tree and pluck off all it's leafs.
But that is not a option I want to take.
I guess that I am  just trying to say that ten years from now,
I want you to be the one holding me and keeping me safe
from all possible harm that comes my way....
Bit i know that is not an option for me.