Head

          spinning


                   Eyes

                            watering


                                     heart  



                                                 slowing


                                          can you see me?

I'm under water screaming for someone to save me


I'm



       drowning

                                        can you see me?

I'm right in front of your face
yet you cant see my pain
I cry every night
yet all you can say is its gonna be alright
yet you don't even know what's wrong with me
I'm screaming
                                        **can you see me?

When you have hurt and pain
and the knowledge nothing will ever be the same
When you fell lost without a doubt
Know that It will be my hand that stretches out
I will be there
when your in need
you can always lean on me

you threw me to the floor
and yet all I know how to do is ask for more
I left you
and now my heart is screaming the only thing I know how to do
I want you

You see the pain that lies in her eyes,
But her eyes are dry,
She won't cry.
No, she won't cry.

You see the anger that burns from her gaze,
The madness that sets her eyes ablaze,
She won't cry.
No, she won't cry.

You see the fear that closes her eyes,
The smile she wears is but a disguise,
She won't cry.
No, she won't cry.

You see the hope that is finally dead,
She cannot trust for her heart has been bled,
She won't cry.
No, she won't cry.

You see the love that lies within,
But she shall never love again,
She won't cry.
No, she won't cry.

You see death's hand that has glazed her eyes,
No one saw her die inside,
They won't cry.
No, they won't cry.

You leave me wondering
if you have changed your feelings about me
so i try to move on
but when i do
people tell me it was to fast the way i got over you
that i never really cared about you
and yet I'm still in love with you
and this new guy
he probably cares about me as little as you do
and yet when I'm with him all i can think of
Is me and you
and that was my one day
of trying to get over you

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
And pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
That I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
And call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
So I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
To stop and say "I love you,"
Instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
So I can let just this one slip away.

When you fall in love you, nothing can change the way you feel
Your heart pumps like mad but you feel nothing but love
You feel full up and you don't even realise you haven't eaten
You can't sleep for thinking about them
You can't concentrate for thinking about them
And when you're with them?
You can hardly breathe for being close to them.
And knowing how good you could be
When they make you happy
You want to cry
When they make you sad
You want them to be there when you cry
And you wont leave them until you die

When is it time to say goodbye,
To all the love I've known,
When is it time to end your pain,
And leave me all alone?

I've watched you on your good days when
I feel your strength renewed;
But shortly after little ups,
The down days then ensue.

We ride this roller-coaster of
Emotions as we try,
To make it through another day,
And yet, I can't deny ...

That as I look into your face
On days that have been bad,
I see a look that beckons me
It's tired, and hurt, and sad.

The little spark I used to see
Behind those loving eyes,
Is growing ever clouded
By life's cruel inhumane side.

I try to see beyond the pain
You feel with every step;
And softly whisper to myself
This may get better yet.

If I can bear to watch you
Just another day or two;
I justify my reasons to
Ensure I cling to you.

For letting go is harder for
The person left behind;
It means that if I let you go,
I cannot turn back time.

Back to the days I long for now,
When you were full of life;
And every day held promise,
And our futures, clear and bright.

But now the lights are darkening ...
We take it daily now;
I cannot see our futures clear
Or think beyond this cloud.

I think the hardest part in this
Is never knowing why,
I have to be courageous
And I have to say goodbye.

For if I let myself admit
It's time to let you go;
I'd have to face reality
Without you ... but I know ...

That soon I have to face the
Final outcome that I dread,
And holding on will only serve
To hurt you in the end.

You've given such unselfish love
For all our time in life,
But if I hold too tightly,
You'll not move t'ward the light ...

On to a better life, where you
Can once again be free,
Of all the pain and discomfort
That holds you here to me.

So if I find the courage just to say
This last farewell,
I hope you will forgive me for
The time it took me; still ...

I'll hold with me, the memories
That in my heart remain,
Pray one day, down the road a'ways
... They'll lesson my own pain.