This is all here
But there

A shadow on your silver
Ware

A conversation with no heat

A warm toilet
Seat

And then there's
More

We're uncomfortable so
Pour
Some
More.

You sip through your Shiraz
and spill it
on the white leather seat of
my sofa
Your laughter echoes down
the hall
the walls find it contagious
but my brain
my brain
my brain pulses with anger
bursting to the surface
of my skin
back and forth
back and forth
down the hall
I get the stain remover
and finally enter the family room
and you're not there
no one is
and neither is the stain
I remember I'm alone
wishing these things
a big
white
empty house
wishing to get angry
with meaningless
stains

and you're never there
where are you

You finally said something
to me.
There I stand
thinking
of what to say

I could say something funny
or clever
or cocky
or rude
or kind

The things cycle in my head
But too much time has passed
I have said nothing
nothing

nothing

anything would have been good
to prove I'm alive
that I am a person

but you'll only remember
me as the one with nothing
to offer

You've summed me up
In an empty nutshell

I watched your hair spin
as you walked away

I whispered a
"Goodbye"

This time
The breath in my shoulders
Was just air

Anything
I
Remember

But also the things I don't
Which actually
Weigh
Much
Much
More.

I was born
Ready.
But
I grew out of it.

On a ship
I pretend to be
peter pan, jousting
flying, planning
to never
land

Walking downtown
I pretend to be
a building
sure
that actually
reflects
my culture

In the forest
I pretend to be
a dinosaur
roar
see the meteor
but still enjoy
the scenery

I'm at a party
I pretend to be
myself.

The world is spinning
Square
The sun is searing
Stare
My heart is beating
My stomachs eating
My lungs are breathing
Air

You have my number
Call
I haven't slept at
All
I sit in a chair
I sweat and I stare
Now here is where I
Fall