Love is patient,
love is kind.
It does not envy,
it does not boast,
it is not proud.  
It does not dishonor others,
it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects,
always trusts,
always hopes,
always perseveres.

I’m losing my mind
Slipping away
Falling into a deep dark place
My memories fade
Truth I evade
Standing in the pouring rain
Happiness and pain
Are all the same
When you can’t remember
What made you that way
Who am I
Who are we
It doesn’t really matter
When we all can’t see
The truths and lies
All feel the same
If we forget them all
Freedom will reign

Stuck in an infinite cycle
Like a song left on repeat

Destruction
Creation
Destruction
Creation
Hope
Anguish
**­pe
Anguish

Despite my ultimate demise
I always get up
Just to fall again

When the seasons change
Will you change yours too
Will you lose your leaves
Or will you hold true
Will your limbs grow bare
And shed all color
Or will you keep your hair
And be my evergreen

A smile I put up to my face
Strange feel and a twisted shape
A façade that I try to make

Out of something borrowed.

A laugh that I sound out loud
Some kind of noise let slip out
A resemblance of what's normal

Definitely something borrowed

A skin scene in a romance movie
A drunken feel I’m left wanting
Someone to hold close to me

Hoping there’s more I can borrow

Long nights of faithful dreams
Characters that only I can see
Left hoping for a better morning

Something that’s not mine to borrow

I feel like a pistachio shell
With no nut inside
****

Im afraid of the love I keep
The fire inside of me
Burning to escape and be free
The embers are smoldering me
At night I lay awake
Holding  to the memories
Desperate to see your face
Afraid of what the morning brings
Careless enough to feel
Something that is really real
Tonight I sit and hold my breath
Tomorrow I’ll get over it
All along Ive always known
It’s your heart Ive wanted
This long drive I’ve followed
Will soon reap tomorrow
Until that time I’m suffering
Waiting for a promising
Will it ever come
Who’s to know
Except the ghosts and shadows

How to find clarity
When staring into the void
Searching for answers
To the questions I avoid
Wandering lost
Like a man without eyes
Stumbling and falling
With no help from allies
But it’s hard to be lost
With no exit in mind
I care for the journey
Not what’s at the end that I’ll find
In love with the maze
All it’s walls and it’s turns
An end to the race
Is not of my concerns
For I don’t wish to be found
Discovered by all
All I want is to continue
My endless fall
Back into darkness
From which I came
Seen by none
Known by not even my name

30 dollars to crack a smile
maybe once a week
genuine or a habit of intoxication
matters not because its more than I've felt
in a week and a half passed
Always the hope of something more
and the disappointment in what is reality
Another hungover Sunday morning
ruined by the bark of a dog that isn't mine
The awakening not from sleep
but the dream of a life I do not own

My body limp & unresponsive
I try to move it but I am so far
Watching from above
Clouds and a canopy of treetops divide us
Layers of sediment cover
Toes, fingers, *******
Buried and lost