B Sonia K

B Sonia K Jan 2020

I thought about you beautifully
Wrote you down carefully
Determined to keep you with me
You're safe and sound with me
But for this glitch,
Erasing you completely
Robbing my mind of your glory
With only faint traces of your being
Now a hole in me I keep
But your words forgotten
And the faint sound of your screams
Ringing persistently
Forget me not.
But I did.

B Sonia K Jan 2020

Lost?

Staring intensely at the screen
Yet, seeing nothing
Only the colors of my thoughts
As they fade into the past
Leaving emptiness in their wake.
Yet, this persistent fullness
Bursting at the seams of my mind
Fills up its over-crowded but empty rooms
With passion and words
And nothingness
Leaving my mind wildly blank
Yet, expressionless with emotions...

Inexplicable thoughts.

B Sonia K Jan 2020

The One You Love To Be.

I will always be
The one you love to be
Not crazed or unsound of mind
With tentacles spread wide,
But sweet and tender
Like roses in summer.

No tough words needed
Where like-minds are gathered
No simple thoughts or expressions
But simple words leaving an impression
Your aspirations and dreams
The soothsaying future you gleaned
It will always be me.

B Sonia K Dec 2019

Desire.

Gyrating bodies
Swimming around in my subconscious
As I stare into eyes similar to mine
Mind filled with different angles
Swirling to sonorous sounds

Eyes meeting
Lips lifting
In confirmation of our passion
Brows raised in a question
Surrounded by an intense stare of desire

We shall now retire
To our sacred place
Where skin like silk touches the other freely
Bodies curved and bent in adoration
The fulfillment of our desire.
The beginning of a rapid freefall
Into weightless nothingness
Overflowing with overwhelming emotions

All that, I read in a stare
that in real time lasted five seconds
And I was a goner.

Dec 2019

Infamous one

Q:722

Had to cut ties
Said goodbye to the past
Embraced the future
Saving places for the old
They aren't showing up
Welcoming new that help with grow
Take the toxic vibes away
Positive attitude can stay
Not settling for less to be accepted
Chose happiness over misery
Not wallow in self pity suffering
Come along grow together
Make one another better
Match energy not drain each others souls

B Sonia K Dec 2019

Contradictions!

Living in contradictions
A slow death
I have killed myself

Trying to uphold expectations
My every breath
In full judgment of myself

Hiding my innermost thoughts
Moving around in stealth
Limiting myself

One step forward, Two steps backwards
Changing on every opinion
To suit everyone’s’ purpose
Killing my mind and self

Where am I ?!?
Lost in their definition of me
Now in search of direction
Surrounded by endless distance
Between who I am
And who I ought to be

Now I wait
For the turnabout of a new wind
To ******* unto the right path
Opening into vast opulence
Saving me from myself
And the endless death I died
Being someone I’m not

Or maybe I’ll cease time
And rewind?

B Sonia K Oct 2019

Slow Down!

That yellow sign before oblivion
Looming before me
As I catapulted forward
Over the edges of safety
Into the arms of dangerous waters
Washing over me in tearfully harmony
As I surrendered to its now painless bliss

I faintly recall that yellow sign
If I can just pinpoint what it said?
My thoughts are now drained in murkiness
As comfortable as the softest mattress
******* out all the light in me
Memories pouring
Raining down torrentially
Over my now fading heartbeat

That yellow sign bathed in rusty edges
Stands alone
In the midst of colorless scenery
I see it now and clearly
As my mind slowly tumbles into blackness
That yellow sign
It read “Slow Down”