I find it impossible
To describe her
flawless beauty.

Her Radiant eyes
Even through
The lines
Her black frames
Drive me Insane

The way her hair
Falls along her face
Hides the fear
Without a trace.

Flawless
Radiant
Stunning

The problem is, what if I already had the one?
The best relationship I was ever gonna have.
What if the reason I'm alone, is no one compares to how amazing the last one was.
What if I'm so scared to make the same mistakes and lose yet another one?
Loneliness isn't just about waiting for the better one, it's also having the best one and finding it hard to move on after.

Our Lust for flesh Has got to end
No empathy for human kind
The digital eye has made the world blind
*** craved teens to
Marching hybrid death machines
Ending our suffering
With Satire life memes
No need for begging
We have apps for that
Taking selfies with our cat
At the tables playing craps
Gambling our student loans
"Don't worry mom I'm grown"
Buying time we will never own
School never prepared us for this
Every new drug we take creates bliss
We don't have time to mourn our loss
Even if it comes at great cost

Counting back the days
Counting, counting
Now it's a blurry haze
Cigarettes and Midnight silhouettes
Fueled my teenage years
It's time to fight these tears
Counting and counting
Walking home till dawn
Passed out on mother's lawn
Oh what a disgrace I've became
Counting, still counting
My skin and memories
Are like prison bars
Just strong enough to hold me
Not the  life momma wanted or fancy cars..

My father left me one night
Not saying a word
Running away from the fright
Of living in a lonely world
Left his kids back home
To find the love of his life
We'll sit here till were grown
He is still chasing his wife
Lone traveller lost again
Romance will be his last
Love of a woman he must befriend
The demon still fights with his past
The dance with the devil
In the pale moonlight
Is better than living with the evil
In the darkest of night
I hope he finds what he searches for indeed
Even when he comes back
Us kids are still left in need...

He never spoke about his feelings
They were his to hide
The best kept secret
Till he was too late
Hand in hand
With another man
His dreams
And thoughts of desire
With her
Started to disappear
He could hear the echo
Of laughter as they walked further
Might as well been fate
Mocking him for his mistake
A secret he will keep to his grave

To the eighth wonder
From the seven seas
Across the sky I ponder
brings back memories
The wind brings your taste
Drifts pass my nose
Leaves me with such haste
The heinous storm grows.
Love is a hurricane
whirlwind of emotion and lust
Then comes the pain
Followed by mistrust.
Communication is dead
Alone my bed feels bigger
Things always left unsaid
I couldn't feel any less sicker

How the full moon so bright
Look how the stars align tonight
Reminisce my Youthful Twilight
How cool are the summer nights
with her felt so right
Cuddled up together so tight
I blink
Now it's behind me
Fast forward twenty
Nothing it used to be
Alone with money
Can't make me happy
If only I could see
And stop this from happening.

The crack in the sky
The blood orange glow
The tear in his eye
Of sorrow and woe
The lost traveler
Love in hand
World unraveler
Heart in command
From the great lakes
To the land that shakes
With a Warm embrace
He meets a new face
The crescent moon howls
The trees sing with laughter
The lonely wolf growls
No happy ever after...

A lonesome traveler notices
the break in the sky,
The tear form in the eye.
The dance of joy flutter
Between two lovers
Many travels have taken place
Yet none was more beautiful than her face
He kept her close
in a pocket book
One look
To find home
Saddness creeps
His arms felt weak
Chin held high
He whispered
True love never dies...

I too am fluent in silence
Come sit next to me
Tell me your violence
Sing your song of misery
I'll sit and listen
Heart aches in my treasury
Trapped in my own prison

Glued to my fear
Lend me your hand
Feel these tears
Stories so grand
Reminisce the wasted years

I'll follow you
To have and to hold
You know it to be true
Hearts made of gold
Alone at last, let's see this through

As the random rain drops fall, and seep into the eroded cracks of the earth
Depression falls into my already crippled body withering away my judgement.
My compassion for love.
Yet I hold onto the rain
Unable to move.
Judgement slipping
Please send sunshine.

Tears still fall
Memories will fade
Life is but a masquerade
These masks we wear
To hide our fear
The pain is real
Scared to feel
That we won't heal

Your my first thing in the mornin
Your the worst thing in the afternoon
Late at night without warnin
Misery sinks in around two

It's not being in bed without you
It's not even talking
It's the sexless nights
And I'm left wanting

It's you and him
Not me and you
It's an outlook that's grim
The sky is no longer blue

You don't get it, but you will
I'm breaking your heart
So you won't dare touch me again
I'm not only bad for you
But if you let me
I'll corrupt you
I'll twist your thoughts
I'm bad for you
I'll drive you insane with insecurity
Breaking your heart is necessary
Breaking you down is my gift to you
So you can move on
Just remember
This one time
I did it for you

I've taken your talons out of me
Yet the poison still remains
Too soon for these wounds to heal
But the pain is still the same
The poison has weakened me
The melody of music fades
Coursing through my veins
Food has lost its taste
Everything is so black and white
Colorblind these days
Love is but a construct
Lust was just a phase

Oh to dream,
To have a life of love
To dream of the freedoms
that money buys
Fancy cars and loyal friends
Oh to dream,
To dream that money buys
get out of life free cards
Oh to dream,
To dream that everyone wants you.
Me oh my, to dream we never die
That money Brings bright blue skys
Where the root of happiness lies

For 20 days
you called me ******
While you were calling him on the phone.
20 days
I was there for you
While in the back of your mind he was why you asked me to leave you alone.
For 20 days
you told me you were working on us
But you were with him talking about trust
For 20 days
I was giving you space to think
For 20 days
He was why we didn't speak
For 20 days
I begged and bled for you to notice me again
But all along it was a waste of my time thinking we would begin again.

As the winged serpents descended
And the smog filed death machine,
marched Towards their last breath
He grabbed her
Kissed her with everything he had left
And walked graciously onto the inevitable.
Something so permanent
an absolute truth of separation.
Couldn't change what he felt about her
The test of time made sure their love existed.
As she begged him not to go
Her memory started to fade
And all that was left, was a black and white photo of two strangers on the nightstand of the nursing home...

I know your home alone
And your crying on the phone
Your left with so much hurt
And I only see you in spirts
And it kills
It's shrill
But just imagine the thrill
The cold chill of the night
Don't hate me out of spite
I gotta do what I think is right
No longer can we fight
It takes all of my might
To stop that beast that's inside
The one you choose to hide
From the world you chose to help
But instead you indulge yourself
We both can't sink in this ship
And I'm just tired of your ****.

I miss the taps on my window pane
The feeling of being wanted kept me sane
But it's just the rain
Reminding me, the sound of your name

I miss the phone calls
The passing notes in the halls
How can the world be so small
When your not in it at all

From the arm wrestles to the cuddling
The first moment you caught me blushing
Once we started struggling
Heart break was when you started noticing

In the small corner of my mind
Resides a place where my memories lie
Inside that door
I stand cold and alone
Every memory is still as stone
I've made many attempts to escape
But depression starts to take shape
cherishing the happy thoughts like glass
Anything good never lasts
Close my eyes and begin to count sheep
Hopfuly these memories can go to sleep

Alone in his kindom he wept
Moon lit nights he barely slept
Pacing the halls he never dreamt
His bride, his queen an untimely death

Trapped in the kindom with a ghost
Madly looking at the ivory coast
Cruel intentions set into our host
The outcome of cancer Diagnosed

Her memory to others was jaded
Even the tombstone was faded
This wasn't the life he thought he created
Depression quickly invaded

Up at the castles tallest tower
was our kings final hour
Without his queen he had lost all power
The rope tightens quickly as the last tombstone reads "to my beloved wildflower".

Nothing like being ignored
When your bored
And they are out there being adored
Like some social media *****
Take a step out of the light and explore
It's always a battle waging war
Mind racing till it's sore
Screaming aloud to shore
No vocal cords
You won't hear from me no more

I have a suitcase full of stars
My body full of scars
Lavish life of fancy cars
only women i seek is in filthy bars
The end of my love life is chard
Alas nerves are brain dead
My Skin is all faded
Busted and used this life is jaded
Catfished women got me all baited
For my actions I'm hated
Assaulted and arrested
Tried, convicted and sentenced
Freed for my patience and penance
Now I'm full of revenge and vengeance
Can't stop till I get it.

You don't think I have all this anger and aggression
As a kid I've only been taught suppression
You wonder why I speak with a stutter, guessin
They tell me to sit down shut up and learn my lesson.
I have anger in my sneakers metal music fills my speakers I have more rhyme and Rhythm than the rest of these tweakers, they wouldn't know the classroom from football bleachers.
So I sit with my time I write down and rhyme while the rest of my classmates are getting caught with crime I go home and have to deal with my parents doing chores lifting up grime but I'm awake the next day back at that grind,
I suffer all day and all night it ain't right I say these Rhymes out of spite at home no dinner no good night one of these days imma take off in flight.

The blood orange moon pierced the night sky unveiling where demons lie,
True lovers intertwined
By the thighs
he moans, she crys

whereabouts unknown
some demons never shown.
Not even the darkness of night
Can conceal the blood moons light

When it comes to poetry,
You were the center of my writing.
My inspiration was your strength.
When you left,
It was like learning to write all over again.
This time I learned to think for myself
And when to close the door on us.

Depression speaks in tongues only the weak and lonely can understand.
It's schizophrenic whispers in your ear when you know no one is there.
It's comforting when it's your only friend to talk to.
It's mumbling shadows on your wall
Telling you it's ok to end it all.
In the end I was there when no one could
No one understands why your so misunderstood...