your snoring is so loud
it sounds like you are feng shui-ing
the furniture in your head
but i love it
see,
i could list all your bad qualities
& the thousand reasons
why i love them
but instead
i wanna catch your flaws
like fireflies in jars
and hide them on a high shelf
so you never
have to
see
them.

if i tattoo your favourite words
all over my body
would you breathe in my pages
& kiss my spine?
because for you
i could be a timeless classic
come,
quote me
from head to toe
so i can find myself
on your lips.

if i was a plant
i'd be overgrown
untamed
tangled roots
sitting on your shelf
i am always sitting on your shelf
i trip over everything
my feet
my words
my head is a hurricane
i wanna be your natural disaster
'cause yes,
i am a disaster
but i can't help but think
your shoes would look so good
resting next to my boots
come & pick out my petals
one by one
i intend to live this life
till my flowers are all dried up
so
if you wanna press me
between your pages
be my guest,
be my guest.
the only ring i wanna see
is you cutting me in half
peel back my bark
i've got all the ******* nutrients
you'd ever need
i was just a seed
when we met
so young,
but i bloomed the first time we kissed
you make me feel so beautiful sometimes
so even though i am a ****,
please
take my dandelion heart
growing through the concrete
i'll grow
through your concrete
you find beauty in unusual places
find it in me
please
find it
in
me.

we are
creating our own constellations
from the streetlights
outside my bedroom window.

i would wrap you in all my sweaters
so i could leave you safe in the notion
that if i can’t keep you warm
my closet can.

brighton,
you made me feel
like less of a cage
for one night
my bars were branches
i have since, however,
thrown away the key.

you,
wore your heart on your knee
we spent three months
in bed
until i found you
washing your sheets
of me.

11am,
you made me impulsive
i knew nothing but your name
we shared our skin for three & a half hours
until i faked a text
and rushed to leave.

one night stand,
and sit,
and all fours,
we were eachothers last resort
it seemed
the whole time
i felt like the aftermath of a catherine wheel
all my charred skin wanted
was to find something for breakfast.

we
found comfort together
2-3 nights a week
only,
momentary comfort left me
with uncomfortable shame
maybe that's why i never said your name
always tried to hide my face.

promised land,
your arms were meant to be a haven
i was supposed to find god in you
we ought to have been scripture
but i am not a holy temple
and i stopped praying years ago.

october
you made me shine
from across the bar
it didn't take you long
to get me into a taxi
didn't take you long
to stain my skin
didn't take me long to let you in
now every time i see you
i know i'll never be clean
again.

if "you are what you eat"
was true
i would help myself
to a bouquet of sunflowers
everyday,
because
i want to learn how to shine
like the street light
outside my bedroom window
i'd line my stomach
with old leonard cohen records
so i could sing all my "i love you"'s
i would stuff my face
with the pages of your favourite book
so i could regurgitate the words
you love so much
whisper them in your ear
while you sleep
i'd take a bite
out of an oak tree
cut me in half
& count my rings
there are so many things
i wish i were
i am not graceful
i'd like to make a toast
to every day that i haven't fallen down
or slipped
or tripped
on my words
see, i am full of mistakes
i never learned
how to ride a bike
god, my parents really tried
but the ground was so unforgiving
& i was too afraid of falling
now,
i would eat those training wheels
so i could keep my balance
walk in a straight line
i'd swallow my watch
so i'm always on time
don't be surprised
if you see me
tucking into those sunflowers
please,
come & bask
in my rays.