My stomachs filled with fire
Your not supposed to look down
Suppose to look up at the clouds
And take a leap
But i feel these chains wrapped around my leges keeping me still
And im looking down
Im scared if I leap
I'll drown
I want to jump
Hard
I want to let go
If i hit the water too hard
Ill shatter
Ill ruin everything
I've tried so hard to keep together
And im feeling weak
And im feeling strong
And im so confused
Will i ever be able to look up?

In the midst of finding who you are
You lost yourself
And once again your searching
Only this time you've lost yourself within another version of you
And your not sure if each of you can co exist
Your not certain which is your truest form
Or if there is yet to be another version
Where your better than the rest
And whatever version you are now is ******* *** your in this endless limbo
Not sure where you'll end up next
Just hoping its not down

I guess I never cared if I was great
I just wanted to enjoy it
Wanted to gain something
I think I always do
I think it takes too long
Until i realize its been awhile
I hate how tastes change
One day im obsessed
The next id forgotten how much i appreciated that peice of art
Like it didnt exist
Like it wasnt my life
I just get lost in nothing
Things that are so un important
And i just want that need and want
For simplicity once again
But things just keep getting heavier
More complicated
Maybe those are just my thoughs weighing in
Making a dramatically different approach on how ive viewed things lately
Maybe we are just non stop changing
Sometimes i think we're just sad
And theres no reason
And we make all these excuses why when maybe its just so simple
I need fresh air
And a change of scenery
And im probably ready to be alone in the middle of a lake on a hot summers day surrounded by towering pine trees
I know
Oddly specific
but I just think ive been over thinking
Doing nothing
And im just ready for more
or less
Make sense?