There's a key
I have to- I need to find
There's a bird on a tree
That's feeling confined

A song
Racing around my head
A wrong
Left all the Right's dead

Maybe it's a curse
That I always find what's worse
Maybe it's a taunt
Because it's exactly what I want

I could be broken,
Beaten,
Burned....
But. I'm Not.

The mist could catch
The corners of my dress
You could see the sleeping beauty
But. You. Don't.

I could live lies,
Hiding,
Horrified....
But. I. Don't.

We could die,
Fading into nothing.
We could walk
On golden roads...
But we don't.

If he smiled just like you
If he only had a clue
Maybe I could love him too

Haven't said a word
But I've listened to it all
You were the only one I heard

If I'd said something not smothered in a code
If my eyes didn't drown themselves in you
My insides might explode

I can only hope that
Maybe if you knew
You could love me too

Pale hospital stench
Crowded on a bench
Waiting for the afterlife
Lines beyond sight, waiting, waiting....
Pale hospital. Stress and strife

Cleansed white tile
An endless isle
Anticipating the judgement, the trial
What have you done, what makes you worthwhile?

Pale hospital stench
Thrown down in the trench
Standing still in a war
Hoping that there'll be something more
Than holding your hand
While the machine goes, "beep, beep, beep!"

Echoes
From the last man
In this haunted mouth

Feathery pinks
Deepening blues
Hues
Leftover from when he awoke

Plump water drops
Piercing emerald blades
Passing time that never offered, never gave
He left it all a hollowed cave

Lost, like the birds
That pass me in the sky.
Forgotten, like the dreams
I loved until I opened my eyes.

A wisp of words
I meant to write.
A wonderland that
I wished to see.
None of it compared to him.

Thirty seconds
Helpless to their hunger
I'm cooking you alive
I reek of lotus petals
You adore my kindness, my warmth

Twenty
Can you see my brain waves?
I tried to tell you
You're such a perfect package
You'd never last long

Ten
Can you ******* flame?
My burning hate
Inflating with your breaths
It's never over soon enough

Five
I am sorry
Two
I
One
Love
Zero...
Maybe they'll re-heat you?

Broken bones, broken glass
Bodies are buried, hearts reap ash
Life is a battlefield
We watch magic
We watch it rise
This magic fog that captivates our eyes

The drought comes slow, but the fire comes fast
We're burning alive!
We're burning alive!

Broken bones, broken glass
Bodies are buried, souls are sparking on the pavement
Life is a game
The silence is the glass between us
That refuses to shatter
Our tongues... hopelessly in tatters

The drought comes slow, but the fire comes fast
I'm burning alive!
We're burning this world!

I dropped my eyes,
And they shattered
At your feet.
My tongue is in tatters,
And never speaks no matter how hard it tries.
I have no sleeping flowers,
So it has to be enough
To take the ashen hand
That guides me to my grave.

A pearl in the folds of black,
In the twinkling blooms of light.
The pocket watch your slowly putting back.
Until it all goes out of sight,
And your blinded by the gold gone over blue.
She is all the rainbows in your memory,
But perhaps a better hue.
She is a pearl in the folds of black,
In the twinkling blooms of light.
Until it all goes out of sight.

Stop waiting
Stop speaking
Stop caring

Tornadoes and fire
Water and glass
Words that fit like puzzle pieces
If you say them right

The little raindrops seeping through your mind
The perfect words
That mean nothing

Stop shouting
Stop crying
Stop asking

Magic, illusions
Dreams, wishes,
Hope and faith
Love and death
Stop

A prison without prisoners
A key without a lock
Me

I keep the gun without the bullets
I hold on without my fingers
I have the chest without a heart

There's no play, but I got the part
There's no song, but I have the lyrics
There's no love, but I can't hate you

A clam without a pearl
A fire without a flame
A world without me...

Left empty with nothing but dreams.
Pulling at the seams
Of an old, white dress.
It's time to confess.

It was the welcome flood
That pushed her along, left her sprawled
Awkwardly on the ground.
But it was his turn to fall
In his own blood.

It was like candy in your veins,
Like riding a horse without the reins.
Like a a day without rain,
The day he felt her pain.
The last -the only- time he looked into her eyes.

Left empty with nothing but dreams
She's not what she seems.
Like an old white dress.
Those dark stains have much to confess.

I feel
This turning deep inside my chest.
Their dancing steals
My heart from it's nest.

Wildflowers.
Swarms of white
Below the golden light.

I feel
This spinning inside my soul.
The bruises have begun to heal,
And something's filled the hole.

Flames will lick you up.
Angels will throw you down.
There's blood in your cup,
And in that blood you will drown.

When the smoke clears
And the moon comes out to play,
You will watch your fears
Rise. The skeletons in your closet will come to stay.

The world will be consumed in a lie,
And you will take the blame.
The layers of shame
Are the only truth to you.
When the end of the world comes
I promise no matter what you do
You will die.

Screaming in my mind,
Pounding in my heart.
I can't seem to find
Out why I'm falling apart.

I'm so tired of the rhymes
Falling like flame off my tongue.
I can't keep wasting time
Singing the same song I've always sung.

Run away
If you can't stay
With your soul.
But I'd be a fool
To make that hole.

Overcrowded.
Words, melodies, dreams that I forgot.
Where can I
Fit you in?

Claustrophobic.
The walls are coming down
In the worst of ways.
How many days
Can I see that same frown?

Person.
One has me caught
In a snare.
How could I have thought
Love would be fair?

If we can't last the night
Promise our explosion will be bright
Promise we can take their sight

They're a slave
To this agony
We're losing the brave

If we can't last the night
Promise we'll do one last deed that's right
Promise we'll take flight

They're a fire
In their righteousness
We're losing oxygen, beginning to tire

If we last the night,
If there is another day we can see,
Promise you'll **** me

Staring as he dies
The world goes still
Only you dare to give your last goodbyes
He bleeds into the horizon, falls behind the hill

Birds are screaming for the moon
To grant us a reprieve
From this time of dying
So some can lay down their arms, and end their grieving

His children wait
One day, two days, for eternity
Some below stay straight
But you tilt with the breeze for all to see
Your love is clear, this sight is fate

A deadly heart
That opens to the sky
Beckoning with art
Vile beneath what our eyes
Have chosen to see

A deadly heart
That clamps with the moon
And rips us apart

A deadly heart
That cries with the rain
For a day
Without pain

My heart was taken by death
And made evil
To steal up your breath

Wines of melancholy
Thorns of ignorance burrow deep
Within the pounding heart
That bird should shriek at wind
To lift and carry higher under-wing

Smelling sleeping flowers
And wandering in a haze
Closes dreams to reality
That gold can grant a life
To steal it back in greed

Turning life on death
Wishing graves to rot
Or mothers to caress
That moment brother murders brother
To end his life as well

A haze
Hanging on your words
A daze
Lost yourself in anger

Glass heart
A satisfying clatter
Glass house, all falling apart

Lick the blood
Off your lips
The crimson color drips
The shameless color floods

The black-hole in my universe
***** me back each time I leave
My soul was born to that
Pavement

From day into night
Free as the starlight
The ache and the rhythm feel so right

The black-hole in my universe
***** me back each time I leave
My feet have pounded circles on the
Pavement

***** out the candle
Jump off the edge
The only thing she couldn't handle
The only promise she crossed her fingers

Mother would like to think a spirit lingers
Nothing else could keep her here
The bee with a deadly sting
The hooded man instilling fear

Father would like to never die
He says he won't so he doesn't cry
He says he'll float around the sky
He says a lie

I would like to not know death
I can't stop to imagine a moment without thought
I would like to hold onto every breath
But I won't win this war I fought

The walls will cave
The fire will consume
We'll lose the brave
And stay in our tomb

I careless mistake
A smile that's sweet, tender,
And utterly fake

Drawn into loops
That spiral down
The flower can't help but droop

It was the rain
That showered before the sun's eye
Offering a rainbow to end my pain
If I let go of the lie

Leaving the blacks and whites and the grey
To a garden, blue and red and violet,
Where I should hope to stay

Escaping the calls of death
In melodies of flying birds
Who lend me breath

Wandering in a fantasy
Of fog, blue and red and violet,
When I can't bear to see

This is not our fight
Take me on your arm
Let's dance by Night
Let's forget about the hurt and the harm

Darling come with me
Leave behind that growing sea
Come ride with me on the stars
Ignore those old battle scars

We were shrouded
By the clouds
And you placed on my lips, a sudden kiss
It was our last taste of bliss
Before you left me for War

Your hands are broken
And your heart is sparking at your feet
You won't leave 'till you've spoken
And your fists will pound 'till we're beat

You're a liar
Make the smoke swirl and spin
And call it magic so they'll fly higher
Into the moments that have been

Your hands are broken
And you're a pillar of flame
You won't leave 'till you've spoken
And suffocated the world with shame

You're a seamstress
Snatching up old sins
That aren't yours to confess,
Secrets you'd bled from beneath my skin

Moving down the lane
Straining my brain
Someone is screaming not to move
But I've got something to prove

Stamping my feet
Grinding my heels
Somehow I'll get down this street
Even if I give into the devil's deals
Even if my hand never heals
No matter how awful it feels

Stopping at the red light
Promising I'll move before the night
It's all I can do
If I ever wan't to reach you

Can I lose
What I never had?
Can I win what I choose
And still be mad?

Thorns pricking me
Blood will fall away,
Like love that exceeds the depth of the sea
And still refuses to stay

Can I steal
Their wandering eyes?
Can I feel
And never be the one that cries?

Thorns pricking me
Blood will fall away,
Like love that is free
And so, refuses to stay

Dawn is coming so open your eyes
To the only gold that won't feed you lies

Dawn is coming so spread your arms
To the only love that does no harm

Dawn is coming so bloom
For the only one who's watching you,
In the only day untouched by gloom

I lost the song
That circled my head.
It feels so wrong
Could it all be dead?

I forgot my muse.
I put out my fire,
But is it really something I could lose?
Do these things expire?

You failed me,
Once, twice, perhaps for infinity.
Is there something that I didn't see?
Is there another key?

Paint over the stain
In this old home
Plaster over the pain
You don't let the tears roam

Is it worth
All the time you waste mourning
Until your swallowed by the Earth?

Carpeted floors
Absorb all the sounds -your dying moans-
All that blood, all that pain you bore

Is it right
That you fade into the night
While they set your picture on top of a black box
In the spotlight?

I am the only demon
That will show you my horns
-you can run-
Because I will
Always find you

I am the only demon
That will love you
And keep you safe
Because we kindled the
First flames of hell together

I am the only demon
That will spear you with my tail
And raise you
Because you'll always ask
To do it all again

Mist
Rolling in and over
Hidden stories
Keep me up until
I lose one day and the next

Laughter
Ringing, singing, pinging
Around in circles in my mind
Under my eyes

Maniac
Staring into the static
White noise, falling from my mouth
Tapping, breathing, clicking.
Collected life in three's
Patterns, turning, spinning in a kaleidoscope
Just a soul, fingers, a bottle dripping ink

Sleep
Calling to me
But my hands are click-click-clicking

My head throbs, but
Pain is a small price
For this addiction, my sweet bliss

Sleep
Reaching for me
There's darkness that I need to see
But my mind is tick-tick-ticking

I should crumple the page,
Erase all the words,
But I'm in a foolish age
And their flying from me, free as the birds

BACKWARDs and forwards,
reeling in when THOUGHTS go out.
they can't give SOMETHING as small
as a goodbye letter with a mispeled word,
even when someone IS MISSING them.
they've taken SOMETHING and it
IS making you BREATHLESS.
you were only BROKEN apart
for a moment, for another kiss, but
he was searching for other HEARTS.
wipe your TEARS,
if not FOR yourself,
then certainly for THE
DEAD.
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BACKWA­RD THOUGHTS
SOMETHING IS MISSING
SOMETHING IS BREATHLESS
BROKEN HEARTS
TEARS FOR THE
DEAD

His eyes droop
A smile plays on his face
The knife is in my palm

Quiet -so quiet-
His breaths fall
To the ground
And rise to the sky

He could never know.
How could he ever know?

Love and hate
Sane and insane
Whispers and screams
Blurry lines,
Red, crisscrossing lines

A kiss he didn't deserve
To lose
My heart pulsed with his,
Such perfection lying in my filth
Death take me now
Before I stay with him

Codes inside my eyelids
Telling me
Exactly what to see
Friends are enemies
Love is hate

Woven finger tips
I feel
The threads they've sown,
I have the cards they deal

Everything I do is disconnected and
Never mine.
It's very simple:
I am a monster by design.

So many days,
Years of moments collided.
Lifetimes
Spent spitting out words.
Like venom,
Like honey.

So many colors
And stars that fly across my vision.
Filling me up
And pouring between my teeth,
Broken from their dam.

So little time
Before it went grey
And rocks were crashing from the sky.
Before inspiration had left
And my pen seemed to always waste it's ink.

Spilling,
Black against a winter white
Seeping through the snow
-layers of skin-
Resting on red
That thrums and sings,
That whispers life, and
Withers in the end

If I told you
That I was empty,
Would you fill me up?
If I told you I forgot how to see,
Would you be my memory?

If I told you
That I shattered,
Would you show me the shard that mattered?
If I told you I lost my words,
Would you find them tucked between my lips?

If I was in love with you,
Would you love me too?
Oh, if only I told you...

Swallowed up
The sun beats down,
Knocking on my coffin
Rain falls down,
More tears for another life
Sheets of ice
Taunting my nerves

Swallowed up
No heaven wants me
No hell can contain me
So I have my wish then, to lie underground
As pensive dust

Broken bones, discarded glass
Bodies are buried, hearts reap ash

Beaten black soles
Bleed into the world
Bright stars once hid there

Blazing fires where devil's roam
Burning hate, scorching screams claim home

Boiling skin, bubbling with words that recall days
Before the crisped carriage came

I've often stared
Into the
Glassy eyes
Of bouncing rain

It is to soon
Their misty blue
Becomes a brooding
Black

Shadows grown
To deepest sorrow
And open horror
As rain runs
Red

At times I feel like glass
Clear, easy to look past
Growing weary I'm cautious
On well worn paths

At times I feel like glass
All is well,
But my life is connected by cracks

At times I feel like glass
Open on the ground, shattered
I am paying a price
With a torn heart, bruised and battered
Pain is simply a vice

After these times, I don't feel like glass
But instead blip on the world
Bold and happy enough -like them, but gone in a flash

I miss you
You break me
And stain me too

I miss your touch
Warm starlight,
Not asking too much

I miss your songs
When they drifted through me
And put aside my wrongs

I miss you.
A wisp of thought, an inspiration.
I think your broken too.

Dangling on the branch
Burned black
That hangs over the river
Of dreams

I fell into a nightmare
That splashed my face
Waking me -Opening me up-
To drown

It was a flash
-Of my eyes gone white,
A face that wasn't mine-
Before I pulled up to the bank
Beneath the black tree,
Below that burned branch, the curse upon me

I'm five blocks
Stacked inside a hole
Pick me a part, block by block
Just don't go looking for a soul

I'm discarded paper
Secrets torn apart
So they could hide
Safely in my heart

I'm bullets in a gun
Crashing headfirst into everything
Tearing through myself
With just a dying sting

I am empty air
I am what they never see
I am, simply, me

I can still see those eyes
Pleading, that voice cries:
"Hold your tongue, hold your lies!"

I was banned
From words
From holding your hand

I can still see those lips
Falling, a smile slips
Then that voice that whips

I can stare
Forever, but I'll see nothing there
Only silence claims the air