I woke up on the hard concrete
I was lying face down
Gravel stuck to my cheek
How did I get here?
My mind started to race
Fear swallowed me alive
I wanted to run, I wanted to hide
I picked myself up
Looked all around
No one was there
I could not hear a sound
It was cold and dark
Dreary and damp
In the distance I saw the lamp
I dragged my body to it
Turned on the light
What I saw was a horrifying sight!
Dead bodies hanging, like sides of beef
Some bodies looked fresh, others were bones
I need to escape, I need to get home
There is no door, no way to leave
The stench is overwhelming, it’s getting harder to breath
Then I see you
Standing there
Fire in your eyes, long straggly hair
You come closer
I have nowhere to go
I’ll be hanging here too, and no one will know

Why is it called a broken heart....
My heart is still beating, is it not?
I am still breathing, as I wipe the tears from my cheek...
The pain is overwhelming ...  
I cannot catch my breath...  
I cannot stop shaking...
I cannot stop crying...
There is no relief, no escape...
What is happening...
Is my heart still beating?  Do I want it to be.....  
Will I ever be whole again...

I'm being swallowed
By the loneliness surrounding me
People everywhere
Yet I feel alone
Alone in this world
Without you by my side
I'll never get over
The fact that  you died
It doesn't seem real
It doesn't feel right
The dark angel came
And took you in the night
How do I move on
How do I survive
Without you by my side
Grief overwhelming
Too much to bear
If I was dead
Would anyone care?
I guess we will see
My love, I'm coming
Be ready to catch me

I am finally done
Dreaming of you and me
It was never meant to be
I was blind
But now I see
I'll move on
Yet again
searching for
A lover, a friend
Is my life over
Just let me cry
I'm sick of trying
Just let me die
I hug my cat
It'll be alright
I have to go on
At least one more night

She lie naked in bed
Feeling naughty and free
Finding the right pose
For him to see
She sipped some more wine
As she watched the bedroom door
All she could hear was her puppy snore
She heard the footsteps
Coming down the hall
She put on her **** smile
And stared casually at the wall
Then the door opened
Oh **** she thought
It was her husband
I'm gonna get caught
He looked at her in shock
Then came the grin
Until the door opened again
This time it was him

Maybe you're not the one for me
Maybe I've been living in a fantasy?
It seemed like it was meant to be
Happily ever after, you and me
I think it's time to move the hell on
Will you miss me when I'm gone?
I'll never know
I'm not coming back
Get my suitcase
I'm ready to pack
No more tears for me
When I'm done, I'm done
*C'EST LA VIE

You can choose to be happy
You can choose to be blue
Just remember, it all starts with you

** ** **
Here comes the snow
Just in time
For a Christmas rhyme
All lights are up
The malls are packed
I'm done shopping
so I'll hit the sack
Santas everywhere
Which one is real
They're all so sweet
I want to tug on their beards
Lights on houses
How pretty and bright
** ** **
Merry Christmas
And a good night

We are all alone...
The small row boat barely rocked on the crystal clear lake, a majestic mirror of ice...
sun glistening off the water,
blinding, like the love I felt coming from your eyes
You look at me, and I forget where I am
You touch me, I'm a slave to your hands
You kiss me, I forget who I am
My body tingles with your every touch
Your tongue runs up and down my body, over every mound and curve
I am motionless
a life size doll under your spell
I'm in total bliss,
with each deep wet kiss
unable to move, or utter a sound
We are all alone...
no one around
I pray that this moment will never end
but then the air shifted, oh no, not again!
Your eyes changed to tiny daggers, no love, just rage
I knew what was coming
as your fist hit my face
You pounded and pounded, until you were done
Red syrup covered us, as if we were one
You picked up the towel, to wipe up the blood, while saying you're sorry, and professing your love
you hold me tightly, you won't let go,
and tell me you love me..
I smile, I know...

Rose petals lead the way through the suite
They covered the bed
And were carefully placed around the hot tub
The stage was set
All that was needed was him
She waited and waited
The hands of the clock kept moving
But she was frozen
She chanted, "He will come"
Over and over again
The water in the tub became cool
The rose petals became dry
Crumbling to dust
A few rose petals floated lifelessly in the tub
She gets in...
Still chanting....
Her body became lifeless, like the rose petals.... a warm red hue took over the water
A knock at the door, then another
He sees a single rose petal outside the door
He knocks again, intrigued by her lure
But their lust was deadly,  to be no more...

I want to sit with you by the fire
I can't resist my burning desire
I'll take you on a ride
like never before
I'll take you on the table
I'll take you on the floor
I'll make you want me
as much as I want you
just let me get my hands on you

Am I awake, really here in my bed
Maybe I’m still sleeping
Maybe I’m dead
I have no idea what’s going on in my head
Did I die in my sleep?
I don’t feel afraid
Yet I can’t feel my body
And I can’t stop my brain
All I know is I feel no pain
If this is death, I think I like it
No snakes or dragons or fire pits
Just peace and quiet, the serenity I’ve craved
Finally I was no longer enslaved
This was too good to be true, and so it began
I could feel my legs, I could feel my hands
The alarm started singing
Ring ring ring
Please make it stop, I don’t want to wake up
I don’t want to think of last night and that club
I want to go back to the peace and serenity
Even if it means death is my only destiny