Medicate it Away

I step on another pill, as I try to get out of bed.

So dizzy, I hardly feel it crushing.

Walking on shells.

Can't remember how many pills I took yesterday.

Just like thy father before me.

One was supposed to get me to sleep,
But my nightmares kept me wake.

One was supposed to get me to wake up,
But no reason to get me out of bed.

One was supposed to settle my ADHD,
But no  direction to focus on.  

One was supposed to stabilize my mood,
But no way to feel.

One was supposed to take the pain away,
And trust me I've taken them in handfuls,  
But I'm still hurting.

But I'm still hurting.

Woke this morning and forgot where I was.

Can't remember how many pills took yesterday.

Too depended, I just lose track.

Too desperate, I just lose care.

Tell my father, I understand now.  

But I can't medicate it away.

They say I’m cold and hard.
That I don’t know how do love.
They say have a glass heart.

A heart people can’t hold.
A heart that only collects dusts.

But let me share a secret about glass hearts.
They are easy to break.
And if you try to clean the mess.
You’ll cut your finger.

What is it like to die young in a date?
Is there complete quiet with no uproar?                                                                          
Or could there be music, that is one great?
For that the dancing tale that I must gloar.    

Her ball room is seen by the candle lights
It's dark and cold yet kinda of painless
The great music, from the middle age nights
She walks among a lifeless and black dress

She'll take your'll hand to dance in her gain
A dance you won't know, cause there you have no right
You spin not knowing the cause of your pain
Then you fall, eyes closed, the light of white

Now, a ghost remembering my last breath

I tell about my dance with lady death