you may not
find everything
that you have
been looking for.
if the only thing
that you
have found
so far is
yourself;

you're already halfway there.

a.n.p

Drenched in pain
yet we call ourselves free.
We swim in rivers of tears
& oceans of fear.
Using life jackets to keep us afloat
but the clutches of sin still pull us under.
We drift through time
living on borrowed hours.
One minute we are tough,
the next we cringe like cowards.
Our attention is given to wasted things
& to people who don't bother.
You think "you're alone"
over & over.
Where were you when I cried?
Where was that shoulder?
It is lost,
along with my mind.
Five years from now,
where will I be?

I don't even know where I am today.
a.n.p

Isn't it ironic?
That you penetrate the
deepest & darkest
corners of my life.
When I swore you wouldn't trespass
in areas that are off limits even to myself.


a.n.p.

I've always wondered what it's like to drown.

Unable to breathe
gasping for air;
only to have your mouth & lungs fill with water.

I've always wondered what it's like to drown.
Then I met you.


a.n.p.