I live in a shifting sea An ocean black depth that seeks to drown Every part of me Cut. Burn. Hit. Every tumult and wave demands The worst I can give myself
A crawling claw from the inky void My own touch fills me with dread. Not my hands. But a demon Living in my head.
Getting drunk of every fear Feeding every insecurity Cut yourself. Hurt yourself. You deserve nothing but pain
Then I'm fine. As quickly as The words were typed. The sea calms, the ice in my chest Melts
But given a moment or stray thought A single sliver of a chance This leviathan will return Hell bent on seeing me dead Rushing up from this darkness Gnashing teeth, slimy claws Living in my head
Loud disrespectful welp, bone faced Cav Subdued in soundless sleep, unaware Here lurks our end, O death stalks us dear Nav Mine ever foolish sword, dull yet sharp A prize awaits the dead, not for us One Flesh, One end, O death hates us dear Nav
Seething boiling mass Thrashing in this bone cage Overcast black torrent Perplexed eyes turn skyward Im supposed to be happy I thought I had shed it way back when But i look around and im standing the dark yet again.
Calmness despite the rage Resignation to the stress Hopeless, Helpless, Worthless Life is a stage And I want nothing but the curtain call