Ash - Hello Poetry

Ash 3h

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in sudden grief and desperation
words I cannot even bear to dress
in floral or elegant prose
escape from me, in a wailing breath

where have you gone?

#grief

Ash May 19

boundless

as I step into this expanse
wild, roaring ocean and fields of sand
a breath enters and escapes me;
I find that my ghosts are falling behind

I made it to high school graduation. ❤️‍🩹

#future #hope #survival #healing

Ash May 13

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the void where you once stood,
out of sight, but i knew

from here, you lived only in whispers
in the same breath that escaped,
i heard it, echoed on the wind

from afar

i have never known grief like this. for all we quarreled, the years we spent without a word, i never thought that would be the last. but i remember the last time we joked well enough - go get ‘em in hell, T. i’ll see you there

#grief #loss

Ash May 11

Gale / control

I stand unmoving at the mouth of the whitewater

the chair rocks, spitting me onto the floor
and crushing the atmosphere into my lungs
everything has changed. the room is just as silent.

Rooted, unblinking, and unaware of them

my nails shred, clawing at the wood
it was maple. I bite and thrash until there is nothing left
when I come to, my skin feels as though foreign.

Until I am dragged without warning, screaming

I lay on the gurney, one eye open
wires twisting, whispering "all mechanical, you are a machine
unfeeling and undone, is it not what you wanted?"

Ash Apr 27

in the silence

the shadow of that dagger
still hovers behind me
waiting, aiming to strike

#trauma #ptsd

Ash Apr 17

A midnight walk

An oath uttered to none is an oath unbound,
but the watchers, the gargoyles of the sky and the earth,
are all witness in the night

#midnight #reflection #promise

Ash Apr 5

Remnants

Smoke, ember, and ash—
remnants of flame,
memories, imprints of a taste so sweet,
of heart, bridge, and stake set alight,
drifting on the wind,
coming to rest in my open palms

#fire