I want to excel
but my thoughts expel
We both repel
But we are stuck here in a jell-o.

in a world of make believe
lie on lie ever deeper
the mind will rebel in the end;
illness often the consequences.

At this age adulting is just
stopping yourself from quitting
right this moment.

Rejection hurts like it does
envelopes me into deepest sadness
pinching me within the chest
spreading the despair in every inch
grabs the heart and crushes it
with the strength of my palm.

Rejection makes me wish I cease
and cancel the existing life lease
Mundane things loses interest
and the state becomes quite desperate
I could go on but to feel this again
the gut wrenching pain

Quite nothing to gain
Quite everything is vain.

...But still, I always want to be the only star beside you. I never got to touch you, but I feel you all around me. I don't know you all very well, but I liked you wholly. You delved into my deepest thoughts, which I never thought would go that far.
I've never felt this way about anyone else but you.
I'll wait for you in a haze because you mean a lot to me.
I'll still like you, I'll keep the same feelings while yours wither, because liking you is something that cannot be untold.

when the rain cries
no one notices

been bad for so long
sad for so long

no one notices.