It's 3 a.m.
I'm feeling cold.
It's dark outside.
I'm getting too old for this.
Then again, are you ever too grown for abandonment?
Being left behind in the darkness of night.
Being left alone with nowhere to call home.
And when you're on your own it become so clear that no one cares.
No one matters but you.

It's 4 a.m. and I know where you are.
It's 4 a.m. and you're in this room.
You're in my bed and in my head.
And I know what this feeling of guilt is.
I let you down onto broken glass.
I let you down and the wall fell so fast.
Now you won't speak to me.
Now you won't talk.

It's 5 a.m. and it's time to wake up.
You're eyes wander but don't touch.
I know what you are thinking right now, 'cause I'm saying it out loud.
It's time to go.
We're getting too old.
And you and I both know this won't work.
Though it hurts like hell we can't keep pretending.
Our love left so long ago.
It's time to part ways now.

So, it's ten years later.
There you are.
You said you never wanted children and that left its scar.
There you stand, a little girl holding your hand and a woman smiling at you both.
She's beautiful.
You're beautiful.
To be honest, I never let you go.
It's 6 p.m. in the garden in the square.
I'm crying my pain and you can't see it.
I know you don't see me as you kiss your bride.
And by the time I get over this abandonment I think I'll have died.

It's nearing midnight.
I want to die.

In our darkest hour
There need be only one light.
A flickering candle,
A ray of hope
But if this candle were to go out
Will we ever get back home?

playing in the windows
letting go of the hope in heart
never letting the lights start
and darkness doesn't seem so bad
it seems to be a friend.

For now I am fine
And for now I can breathe.

Right now I'm okay
And right now I'm free.

But in an hour I could go.
In an hour I could die.

In a day the world could end.
In a day I'll break down and cry.

For now we can laugh.
And for now we can speak.
But what happens when we break down to scream?

I feel it,
like my body is on fire.
I feel you under me dying skin.
I swear you are lost on me.
I was your one and only,
and I used you.
I abused you.
I ******* you over.
And for some reason you stayed.
And now as I am no longer blind you stand beside her.
Slowly,
oh so gods be forsakenly slowly,
I move forward.
And with this new boy I find myself drooling and dumb.
I cannot talk to you, though.
No to my best friend.
He's a danger.
He's new.
He's an ***.
But I find myself drawn in.
What am I to do?

I told her what I wanted.
My darkest flying dreams.
I told her what I needed;
That all was not as it seemed.
And I waited for her to say "okay, I won't tell a soul".
But she never said it.
She said what I had told.
Now they all know.
They know my little secrets.
The cat lost it's tongue with simply a word from me.
That cat and her tongue.
Like death with a voice.
None of her business.
Not her choice.
Maybe the cat should be for supper,
or maybe breakfast in the mourn.
Down, little kitty, this is a war.

It got warm outside at night
and the feeling of rushing air feels so right.
No matter what you say you know it's true.
You can move on if you choose to.
I know how it feels to stand there in your shoes.
I've stood there before, stood there with you.
And I know that it is hard to let go of love,
but I'm not really sure that's what this was.
Because days spent in bed,
fingers running through your hair,
the words in whispers of lust,
missing school and not giving you up,
and nights spent in agony.
The yelling and the screaming.
No, I'm not sure this was love.
Let me down softly,
why don't you?
Take me high,
and drop me like rain.
My heart is with you for so many reasons,
and you never came.
Tell me now what it is you want.
Tell me, now, why you care.
Tell me how,
how you can think of me
when all you ever wanted was her!
Because days spent in bed,
fingers running through your hair,
the words in whispers of lust,
missing school and not giving you up,
and nights spent in agony.
The yelling and the screaming.
No, I'm not sure this was love.
No, I'm not sure this is love.

You're at my back door,
begging to come in.
To sit down and talk.
I want to open up,
I really truly do,
but I can't.
This has to stop.
This was never love.
Though I thought it was.
And you saying such sweet things now doesn't make what happened any better!
Love is fallen
into the deep dark pits.
Never go after it.
This is what happens.
This is love.
This really is.
Love is a shard of glass
begging to pierce your skin.

broken hearts and broken glass
we are left with mason jars full of acid whiskey.
oh
such a pain. such a waste.
such a poisonous taste.
nothing left for me to say.
You are nothing in a grander scheme of things
but to me you rule the world.

I know she's great to you;
I know you love her, too.
You'd never say it, but I know.
I know becasue they told me
you said it would last.
but I know it breaks your heart,
even though it's passed.
Time says so much.
not to waste our time.
If it's not meant to be, that's fine.
That doesn't mean I know what to do
Because for so many reasons
I'm in love with you.

At times we're perfect
Like a picture of a movie scene.
And then you think how I've hurt you.
that feeling stings
I have sung many songs of I'm sorry.
But there's nothing I can do.
Even though I'm in love with you

If you love her,
go ahead and love her.
I want your pain to fade.
But I know I do.
I love you.
No amount of pain or time will change.
No matter what you feel in exchange.
Do you love me?
Is that feeling still returned?
Or will I have to learn to move on?
I broke you!
Bent you to the point of break!
I ruined what we had and I can't say thanks.
Because I don't know if you love me back.

You two seem to be the best.
Yes, I hate her fully,
Why don;t you see that now?
I know she's not to you a face in the crownd.
And though I've caused you pain.
And though you've broken me too.
Darling, I'm in love with you.

**** the tears.
**** the world.
And most of all,
*******. YOU

Forever in your heart.
Forever in mine.
Never letting go,
Neither shall you.
All the pain inside.
All the heart ache you’ve caused.
I will fall.

Into the blackness you call hate.
Jealousy, anger, and rage.
Pity for you is hard to give.
But I still cry.
People wish for death.
So often do they die.
Yet something stops suicide.

The pain in my heart,
The sorrow I have.
I am pained to say,
It is from you.
I burn in my own pity and sin.

Only the sin of loving you,
Could get me here.
Yet Hell hath no fury,
Like a woman scorned.
Oh, I have been scorned.

My pain is ending,
Whilst yours begins.

I'm letting go
I need to move on
I need to be free
And, yes, I need to fly.

I'm not a caged bird
I don't have wings.
I don't have feathers or black eyes
I don't get to take to the sky.

But I can get into my car
I can take to the highways.
I can move faster than you.
Yes, my Ford is old, but your Chevy has broken down.

My heart is closed and gaurded by walls.
There is no way for you to get it back.
Can I express to you that I no longer care?

Feel free to let me be.

I'm going to drive down to the Alabama coast
I'm going to pick up shells on the Gulf Coast shore.
I'm gonna dance with a boy that I won't have to think about changing his mind.
I will let my feet sink into the sand.

I'm not a caged bird
I don't have wings.
I don't have feathers or black eyes
I don't get to take to the sky.

No, but arms can carry me in the waves
I can move with the currents and not get dragged under.
My legs can move me running on the shore.
I don't have to worry because all my worries fall.

So, please, by the gods, let me be.
Let me go free.

Daylight through open curtains
Sunlight through shards of glass.
Sweet smiles and love in our hands.
We could be more,
but we settle for just friends.

I don't always know what to say
and sometimes that's not so okay.
But we both know there's love in the hearts.
We both know that we care.
The wind sweeps your hair a bit worse than mine
and all we can do is smile and wait.
Your eyes make me smile
and your smile makes me laugh.
My heart starts beating faster than the rest.
That scruff on your cheek is so nice to feel against my own.
So let me remind you again.
I love you.

I have to like her,
though that ring breaks my heart.
Though her smile makes me angry
and your laugh makes me cry.
This knife on my skin
it doesn't know the trouble I'm in.
All it knows is how to end the pain.

They don't know how it feels
to love you.
They don't know what it's like
to be torn in two.
And I don't like the feeling of my heart breaking
into two.

My father starts to yell,
"what're you crying about?!
Don't you know you've got it
better than someone else?!"
He doesn't get why my eyes are down.
My heart is swollen.
My veins burn.
My emotions feel like fire inside of me.
I can't get it out.

They don't know how it feels
to love you.
They don't know what it's like
to be torn in two.
And I don't like the feeling of my heart breaking
into two.

For some reason I need you.

When I get down
I call on you,
because that's the only time
I'm brave enough.
I'm more scared of dying
than to speak to you.
But it makes it harder to let go
on my own. . .

You don't know how it feels
to love you.
You don't know what it's like
to be torn in two.
And I don't like the feeling of my heart breaking
into two
for you.


I'll die for you.

I lost my way a long time ago
I lost my heart when you went home
I found myself in your arms and in your skin.
Don't ask me how to fight
I don't know.
Don't ask me how to cry,
Becasue I don't remember now.
I am numb and broken
So far past bent
So far past heartache and unpaid rent.
Once upon a time happens a lot
But the happily ever after seems to not.
And no matter what you say my heart still breaks.
So go...
Before my heart turns to ash in front of you.

Walking round the oak
With all eyes on me.
One breath in before the casting.

Earth- ground me
Water- give me wisdom
Fire- give me energy to do what is right
Air- come into me; you are my breath
Spirit- Goddess's voice, bless these children.

The wind is swirling around me.
The voices are calling my name.
I hear young ones crying.
Asking for equality!

Earth- ground me
Water- give me wisdom
Fire- give me energy to do what is right
Air- come into me; you are my breath
Spirit- Goddess's voice, bless these children.

Men are dying.
Children crying.
Women taking the pain.
Lady in the night- taking care of her child.
A father saying last goodbyes.
A mother's death
A child- heaven blessed.
I must do what I can.

Earth- ground me
Water- give me wisdom
Fire- give me energy to do what is right
Air- come into me; you are my breath
Spirit- Goddess's voice, bless these children.

Goddess, come to them...

Chariots on fire.
Rivers flooding.
Men’s battle cries.
Women scream.

Death washing over.
Blood and bodies,
Filling the streets.
“God,”
Who is he?

How can he help?
Blood puddling in the streets.
Hate is coming.
Hope is lost,
As is the war.

Chariots on fire.
Rivers flooding.
Men’s battle cries.
Women scream.

Yes I know that you're torn
and Yes I know that we may not work.
But this isn't serious.
No this won't matter in the long run.
So please just take the moment to love.

Forget about the girl that ruined you,
and I want you to move on.
I wish that you could see,
but You're blinded by hurt.
So let the love in.
Just let me in.

She rolled in on burning tires.
Her eyes dark and devilish.
Fire blazing- burning bright.
A Wytche's spell shall bind the night.
So shallow the pools with the pearl on the surface.
The glaze of light the finds thy eyes.
And the Wytche's spell is in your mind.
The dark and light shall bind.
The life of the Gods and the light of their minds.
The Wytche's spell shall cast tonight.
The Wytche's words you must recite.
The Wytche's dance must take flight.

The Wytche's love
The Wytche's light
The fallen wood
The darkened sight
The hallelujah of the song
The dancing flames go on and on.

Sorry you don't like me
Sorry you don't like me
But I'm not interested in what you think you mean.
You're not the Goddess.
You are no God.
You like to think that I should bow.
But I doubt you know me.
I doubt you know anything.
Fact of the matter,
I know you don't.
Fact of the matter,
I want you gone.
In all of my years I've not cared less for one person.
Get the hell away.
I am so done.

Will he drink it?
the poison that he was given
Will he speak to me?
in the voice that holds no emotion
Will he look at me?
with his dead eyes
Why is he so sad?
I know the pill was taken
Why can I not help?
I know I could do something

But it's depression and worse.
His tears keep coming.
He pulls away sometimes.
And others I go unacknowledged.
My hand trembles as badly as his.
His sobs come out quite and fast.
I know he doesn't want me to see.
It makes me hurt.
It makes me cry.
It makes me angry.

But I know the pill was taken.
So will he drink the poison?
Will he never say "I love you" in his kind voice again?

Gods,
heal me please.
I need to know you're there.
Gods,
feel me.
You know me and I'm still unsure.
Gods,
hear me.
You must know my prayers.

I know of you;
I think of you;
I hear of you,
but I don't know if you hear what I think.

Gods,
say something!
Gods,
do something!
Gods,
speak something!

There must be a way to go.

Let all the dreams say
            Goodbye...
                       By all the light of the stars
                                         Let all the love of my heart take wing in the dawn.

For shame do I go.
        With shame do I walk away.
                               But never again will that happen.
                                                             Never again will I leave your side...

And darkness is broken in the midnight cave.
                           In light of the lanterns we walk away.

                                                                          So we'll walk away.
                                                                                                                                                   *Together

I’m so scared sometimes.
My eyes want to close but they must stay open!
God in Heaven,
Help me!
Why must the world crumble around us all?!
Why must we stand aside as it happens?!
God in Heaven,
Listen!
I feel the pulse of the planet hitting me with full force!
I know this routine.
I know this song and dance.
Good Lord,
I need to know!
Why do we suffer?
Why am I still hear…?

One step to the solemn light
and one foot in that beam of falling darkness
is all that is needed for one more heart to heal
and no one needs to know that he feels
and no one needs to know that she feels him
No one needs to feel the light on their skin at noon
or the beam of the moon at midnight.
Because pain is just as in the mind as happiness.
But 'tween two pain is real and happiness is lost in the battle.
And between the two happiness looses to sadness.
Pain is the fate of the light and the fault of the darkness dwelling.
That which dwells in my soul.
That which dwells in yours.
A divine darkness.
A feared light.
And the light and dark become equals.
In the end, no one wins.
In the end, we all find pain.
So here is- *pain

Once Upon A Time there was a little girl
and once upon a time I was a little girl.
Running 'round to the sound of the breaking glass
as the champagne spilt on the floor.
And I danced to the sound of a lost girl
who was raising a child on her own.
And I ran with the sound of a half grown boy
that was raising a child all alone.
Help was offered for a price
but they didn't have the payments.
And no one knew that that little girl paid a price of her own~

You are not the only one left.
I know how you feel.
I can'ttake it back.
I can't say that's it,
but I know what lonely can be.

I've been lost before.
I am lost again.
I know what I can do and what I can't in the end.
I have lost a fight,
And I have lost a war.
i have lost myself before.

So don't think that I don't understand.
I may not always be your kind of man.
I feel it in the bone and I feel it in the dust.
Yes, I know, that the gears will rust...

But sometimes it's worth it
to fall down.
Sometimes it is wroth it to dance arround.
Sometimes it's worth it to lose yourself,
Because sometimes it's about somebody else.

Lost myself, I have.
Lose myself, I will.
Dance and bound is my soul and will.
Don't think that freedom comes free.
Don't think that a life cannot change you or me.

My tears brim over
I know nothing else to say
I will enter night

follow me,
down.


follow me quietly,
into the sun.


follow me desperately,
my child of darkened love.

Light the fire.
Please do.
Let the smoke fill your lungs and let you not come back.

Pull the gun from the holster.
Feel free.
Shoot the deer- feel the rule of three.

Cast your line in the pond.
I want to see the sharks.
They'll circle and pull you under.

Say what's on your mind.
Say what's in your head.
Tell me what's wrong and tell me what's there.
I know you're broken.
I know that you're hurt.
I know she's still there.
She's in your head and in your heart.
Doesn't mean that love will tear us apart.
Claryss in the room.
Claryss in your thoughts.
No matter what you say this is breaking you apart.
And I...
I want you to know that everything is okay with me.
I know that you don't find comfort in that.
It's okay.
It's okay.
Claryss in the room.
Claryss in your thoughts.
And I can feel her breaking my heart.
She tore you to pieces and left you for dead.
And now I know, though I don't know her, she's in my head.

Take a breath, slowly and softly.
Know that I love.
Know that I would die for you.
Take in that breath, knowing that I'm here.

Check yourself in, but just for the night.
I know of a creature that sure likes to bite.
His name is well known, but I dare not speak it.
Stay inside or you just might meet him.
And in the glistening night I know you'll hear it.
His voice will call to you and take your spirit.
Come to me, child. Come closer now.
And with no thought you will recieve a mark like no other.
You would not believe that in the darkness you will forget.
You will surrender your heart to the man.
So, when the black of the world falls, don't forget your wake-up call.

i know that it's okay
and i can feel that it's alright
but why is it that i am still lost on the bright side

to be honest i like the dark
it's peaceful and kind
and like a phantom once said
all lies in the music of the night

so tell me if i'm wrong
or say it if i'm right
look me in the face and say it in the night

down

down

down

the world fallls
                  down
and the world is dark and the world is cold
and it falls
            down.

darling dance and don't fear falling
                                                    down
don't be scared to fall
                                 down

down

down

down

And Life Can Be easy.
All You Have To Do
Is Not Be Afraid To Fall.
Don't Be Scared To Go

*Down

My tears brim over
I know nothing else to say
I will enter night