A huge wall it protects from the outside
maybe sometimes it is there to much
but it protects me from danger
even if sometimes voices try to convince me
to open up so they could help me
but it did not work like last time

what place am I
am I a pawn
just a sacrifice for someone
or a replacement
A king
someones most important person
a queen to protect my loved one
or am I the knight
to protect my loved ones and  
harm any opposing my loved one
maybe i'm the player making the moves

as other see happiness i see something different
like colors you don't know
if your truly seeing the same thing
you might see yellow but i see gray
as some may be a colorful wind
might be a storm brewing inside
as you see a mask im hiding in
i see through that mask of happiness

In a field of flowers
As the comfort of the grass settles your muscle
The sun warming your bones making you close your eyes
The peacefulness of the cool breeze of the air
A place, to breath, to think, to like, to not be judged
Only if it last forever only if I could forget the stress, the pain
Why not right now forget about the house and sleep in peace

going against pain
going by with adrenaline
trying to hide whats been there
but nothing can't stop the feeling of the past
feeling great but that's for a moment
thinking i'm smart but then WHY AM I LIKE THIS
trying to convince myself i'm okay
all i did was hide in a mask from my emotion
but it was just a mask nothing else

Learning how to fly
Sometimes fear is good
But it can hold you back
You are  going to have to do it some time
Some do try but some are stuck
But some are free
Anyways you need to fly to go up

word have no meaning until you put meaning in them
OR put words on bricks then throw them at someone
then the meaning is to hurt someone

in a party warmness washes over me
as other greet me of my day of birth
looking at the family the warmth feeling
wishing the day would repeat again
as im on a bed of my last breath
i am greeted with a farewell
as i went to a peaceful sleep
as the darkness shrouds me