it came back the gunshots the bombs everywhere
now i can't move parallelized by the choke in my throat
my heart trying to escape with its life on the line in my chest
i try to move but something not letting me
i relive the day of the unspeakable
bodies everywhere
shivering with the same feeling
i wander when i am getting out
of the mind of hell

hey what are you doing
i'm doing this
but nobody going to like you
oh sorry
just listen to me
okay
(week later)
maybe i will try a drink

trying to feel better but keeps coming back
the image of a crash everyday
keeps invading my dreams becoming nightmares
everytime I be in that car I relive that day
the pain on my right arm to the my throat getting choked by fear
everytime i be in that car i see the coffee flying from that crash
maybe i will not freak out again if i go in that car

the moon whispering in the calmest night
as it shines reflecting off your skin
as you look at the whispering moon
you forget the troubles and pain
other has caused and now peace
has filled you bones and heart

my past actions that causes tears in my eyes
seeing the others in pain.                          
my loved one causing more pain because I caused theirs
before i did not know now it haunts me forever
now i'm wandering if I deserve what I have
because I never saw them again

everyone is gone left me to be
the light faded as others took over
the blanket that covered me is now taken
not i am alone trying to be strong
but it never works but i get in trouble
and now i am were i was last time

the darkness you shrowded me with
leaving me with my thoughts
you left with the light that you took
and now you leave me
what me wandering what I should do
but it's okay i'm used to it
the darkness you left me in
is better than I was with you