cries with no help
silent with every movement
just there with a mask
keeping problems to myself
but what problems I got none
i'm fine for a millionth time

born with light but-
sometimes we need it to be bright
with the good memories
if we let the light die
so will the happiness
sometimes a wind blows
maybe someone dims it
when it goes out
its hard to be bright again

word have no meaning until you put meaning in them
OR put words on bricks then throw them at someone
then the meaning is to hurt someone

sometimes being open is good
but there no being closed again

one day I got a perfect life until I had to where black.
all alone with just the priest.
trying to help resit the drink
but made my pocket empty.
but keeps on helping until it lings on to me.  
try to stop but it clings on to me like a magnet
I cant keep going on like this.
and now i'm stuck with no job.
about to get kicked from my own home.
the fear that used to be driven away.
is now coming back.

I am from book from being grounded most my life
from play football tag
from hamburger helper to homemade meals found online
from football on thanksgiving to eating five plate
still wandering where the food went
from exploring in the woods finding some old bones
from strict parents to lenient ones
from going into a dark hole
to climbing out of it
from climbing trees
from injury's from falling
from the saying **** it up buttercup  
from jumping off the swing
from making the family's generations pizza bread
from grilling burgers every Friday night
from baby sitting every week
from a free family

what place am I
am I a pawn
just a sacrifice for someone
or a replacement
A king
someones most important person
a queen to protect my loved one
or am I the knight
to protect and  
harm any opposing my loved one
maybe i'm the player making the moves