sometimes being open is good
but there no being closed again

one day I got a perfect life until I had to where black.
all alone with just the priest.
trying to help resit the drink
but made my pocket empty.
but keeps on helping until it lings on to me.  
try to stop but it clings on to me like a magnet
I cant keep going on like this.
and now i'm stuck with no job.
about to get kicked from my own home.
the fear that used to be driven away.
is now coming back.

I am from book from being grounded most my life
from play football tag
from hamburger helper to homemade meals found online
from football on thanksgiving to eating five plate
still wandering where the food went
from exploring in the woods finding some old bones
from strict parents to lenient ones
from going into a dark hole
to climbing out of it
from climbing trees
from injury's from falling
from the saying **** it up buttercup  
from jumping off the swing
from making the family's generations pizza bread
from grilling burgers every Friday night
from baby sitting every week
from a free family

what place am I
am I a pawn
just a sacrifice for someone
or a replacement
A king
someones most important person
a queen to protect my loved one
or am I the knight
to protect and  
harm any opposing my loved one
maybe i'm the player making the moves

it can take 5 days to make something
5 weeks to get a best friend
to cry on their shoulders
5 months to love someone
to be your light
5 years to marry someone
with a full heart
but it can take 5 minutes
to a broken heart

A good day
well everyday a good day
what could go wrong
people think i'm a sunshine
maybe I am
doesn't mater
because i'm wearing a mask
but you don't know

A blanket I like
It covered  me when i'm stressed
It helped me when i'm sad
It there when there when  i had been a lost
But now i lost it
It gave me light as it took darkness
But now there is darkness with no light.