plain like a white board in class
a quiet class while everybody is taking a test
fidgeting with you're pencil
as you wait for everybody to get done
why is this taking so long

you want to know about cold
i guess you have not been told
you might freeze beer
i guess you don't have a tear
try to show some mercy
i guess you don't know how
you try to look down
but im up in the stars
not looking down at you
i don't have time to frown
at you trying to get me down
but i will keep going up
climbing that ladder
not looking at you
because your to below
for me to see you
try to fight me but you can't
reach me because you are on the cliff
about to fall from my drift

in a party warmness washes over me
as other greet me of my day of birth
looking at the family the warmth feeling
wishing the day would repeat again
as im on a bed of my last breath
i am greeted with a farewell
as i went to a peaceful sleep
as the darkness shrouds me

people look at me like i have a happy life
but they don't know about the ****** part
it may be **** but it is like a war head
without the sweet part
bout a father who did not try
bout a kid who did not cry
despite the kind of pain
that rain down inside
tore open the world
made him open his eyes
now he understands
what needs to happen  
to betray his own father

being left alone with the darkness you left me
I am still waiting for your forgiveness
sorry a thousand times filled with pain
but you left me in the darkness
if I could make it better would you forgive me
would you forgive the pain or leave me in the dark
with the darkness that consumes me
sorry for filling your eyes with unspoken tears
just for not saying sorry and not being there

i thought fittin in would help
i realized its like jumpin off the cliff
no one gives a crap
people trying to get laid
but end up getting the maid paid
people tryin seduction
but it gives them the reduction
why not go jumpin off
when everybody else is complainin
maybe lets see what im gettin into

as the car leaves
i wonder how far
before they come back
still waiting for only
for jack to come back
to reveal my fate
that they left the state