going against pain
going by with adrenaline
trying to hide whats been there
but nothing can't stop the feeling of the past
feeling great but that's for a moment
thinking i'm smart but then WHY AM I LIKE THIS
trying to convince myself i'm okay
all i did was hide in a mask from my emotion
but it was just a mask nothing else

shadows there watching
you drown you in there own darkness
giving there own grief without light
going away for every step you didn't take
making you wonder why it can't happen
leaving you to drown in the hole
everyone dug from there own darkness

a light taken by shadows
replaced with presents with a bow on top
to think if I really deserve it
hearing whispers of the "truth"
making me not trust my friend
but is he my friend or do he want to use me
i don't think he are pretend to like me but my lover said so
going deeper in the darkness as hell unleashes in my mind
everything is gone but it's right there
giving all my love to one person who gives me what I don't have
someone to talk to
someone for protection
someone who protected me from my friend

to be lost in trust of another
Only to forever be blinded
of what is in front of me
and not see what is behind me
but the feeling of betrayal
of knife of envy in my back
for what i have gained now is lost and drained
of light of a darkness i fell in
i once gained is not lost

can't cut steel but kills many
causes epidemics but saves lives
used for torture but never breaks bones
makes death happen but not all can use

To run from the fruits that others want you to eat
To find peace in solitude but only to be followed
A follower people are following to a deeper hole
Only for the follower being brought deeper by others
To see statues staring at you deep within the hole
Only to look past you not even seeing you
Being constricted by others who want power
Causing you to be thrown after it's done

to find light after searches
to see dim light for the first time
squinting because it seemed bright
brighter than any sun if there was one
when the light goes after darkness consumes it
it becomes dark the same darkness
but it makes an ache that can't go away
searching again to find the same light