expected to give empathy
all it makes is a lemony taste
thinking it be sweet as honey
why not have a treat from harmony
but without empathy without acting selfishly
compassion that carries on with the pained to connect
that isn't your own lemony taste but mix it with honey
instead of enduring the same bitterness with some water

going across a desert trying to find something
everything piling up on your shoulders
to find a circus full of lights in a dark cold desert
filled with candy lights and people but remain alone
but who cares their is a magicians, candy, everything fun
at the end when the lights go out
everything goes dark and the desert is still their the dark cold desert
the sand the feels chill rough against your feet as you drag them
trying to find the reason for all the weight and the guilt upon your shoulder
to replay something you want to end already while everyone expects you to be happy

my heart drained from trust
my mind adsorbed it's energy
to give everything only to be given nothing back
to be judged for everything you lost
to feel that light that once housed you been lost
dreams only to tell you your life is going to get worse
trying to find hope when there is none
hoping everyone just leaves you alone in the darkness that now houses you

going against pain
going by with adrenaline
trying to hide whats been there
but nothing can't stop the feeling of the past
feeling great but that's for a moment
thinking i'm smart but then WHY AM I LIKE THIS
trying to convince myself i'm okay
all i did was hide in a mask from my emotion
but it was just a mask nothing else

shadows there watching
you drown you in there own darkness
giving there own grief without light
going away for every step you didn't take
making you wonder why it can't happen
leaving you to drown in the hole
everyone dug from there own darkness

a light taken by shadows
replaced with presents with a bow on top
to think if I really deserve it
hearing whispers of the "truth"
making me not trust my friend
but is he my friend or do he want to use me
i don't think he are pretend to like me but my lover said so
going deeper in the darkness as hell unleashes in my mind
everything is gone but it's right there
giving all my love to one person who gives me what I don't have
someone to talk to
someone for protection
someone who protected me from my friend

to be lost in trust of another
Only to forever be blinded
of what is in front of me
and not see what is behind me
but the feeling of betrayal
of knife of envy in my back
for what i have gained now is lost and drained
of light of a darkness i fell in
i once gained is not lost