You sang so beautifully
Like you meant every word

You cried when singing
It was your soul begging

But no one knew
That is was it the tears of a broken man
On the verge of ending it all

i try so hard
to just move on

leave these thoughts
and live life

but i know i can't
so i want to

my dark tales
yet i am so
afraid

i dream of things no one ever dreams about
laying down at nigh closing my eyes
i hope for this excruciating pain
to take away everything else i don't feel

i dream of falling down
into the deepest of waters
from the highest of cliffs
to take me to other places

i dream of things no one every thinks of
because
i need to fill the emptiness within
i don't feel anything

i dream because
my mind needs to find
that place no one can find
that brings me back to being

alive

Indirect conact,
Meeting up,

My anger boiling,
Lost it the moment I saw

You filled a void temporarely
Leaving me wanting

Expectations
Work hard an meet

Work
Stay up nights to finish

Freedom
Drowining and having none

1,2,3
Life is gone

Ponytails, toothy smile,
Running around playing,
Emotions on a pile,
Don’t understand a word you’re saying

Straightened hair, make-up on,
Imaginary world that can’t be
I need you to be gone
A pain inside that none can see,

What have you done oh father,
I can’t even call you that name,
I’d have you dead, rather,
Loving you, am I to blame

To the emptiness in my life
That I fill with fantasies

To the need in my head
Of leaving this world

To the begging in my heart
For impossible love

Please, leave