Here I sit
In a catatonic fit
Awaiting no awake.
You may read on
But my story is wrong,
And will simply make you ache.
I found myself here not so long ago,
How I got here I do not know.
I lost my sanity.
I drifted into infinity.
But here I’ll decay
Nothing left to say.
Hoping cigarettes will spark a conversation.
They said all I needed was medication.
But all the kings horses and all the kings men
Couldn’t put me back together again.
I just wanted to get my face out,
Find out what life’s all about.
But I dove in head first.
I watch reality burst
Into a million sparks and flames
Licking like snake tongues untamed.
They say I’ve lost focus.
Like I’ve eaten a lotus
To be stuck here nevermore
In a world of metaphors.
I’ll look out my window
See the things I’ll never know.
Evaporate into a nimbus.
My path was much to sinuous
When my feet were on the ground
And my head was able to move me around.
I think I’ve lost touch.
Guess I did a little much.
Trying to find myself
I got lost
And found everybody else.

And the worms ate into my brain,
Maybe I'm going too insane.
Falling into this abyss,
I think I’m filling with emptiness.
So I’m going today to meet the Czar
Just a fall away, up to the stars
I’m starting to feel some levitation.
You think it's all a hallucination.
But I’ve seen them, they're real.
More real then I can feel.
With everyday they grow stronger
And if I let this go on much longer,
I just might crack
I’m starting to feel like I might be attacked

But they’ve never lied.
They’ll tech me how to fly.
Because they know the way
They never leave me in dismay.
They take me to a castle with fluorescent sound,
And color echoing off the ground,
Around the corner fairies peek,
And in reality never leaks.
Until I come back to the ground.
Left with mere boring sound…
Things here are so conventional
Life needs to be more dimensional
Less intentional
More exceptional
So I’ll go to Eden and play,
Rather than sit here and decay.

Until, one day, my world went grey.
And the wind had nothing left to say.
They came in from all around
I couldn't get back down to the ground.
Then everything started to scream,
And became anything but a dream.
The world was lit with rage.
They trapped me in a cage,
And placed me by a feast of other lost sanities
Reality left only in distant memories.
The world was hungry and must be fed.
And all of me filled with dread
When I realized I was going to be devoured.
All I could feel was encroaching power.
No escape from my world of outlived bliss.
It was never supposed to be like this.
Here I was supposed to die never,
Be a queen, a god forever.
They had planned it all along,
Tricked me with they're colors and songs.
So here I lie about to die,
And all I can do is barely sigh.
As teeth bite into my brain,
Wiggle around,
And spit me back onto the ground.
With the worms inside my head,
I think I might be dead.

Who makes roses cry rainbow
The iris of my eye.
You make me see ghosts,
And want to meet them.
See demons, and want to fight them.
See gods, and what to be them.
You let me be.
Set me free.
Took me to the kingdom by the sea
And just drifted away with me.
I melted with every word you said.
Fire met water with a bump on the head
And a spark of electricity.
You taught me relativity
On a stroll down sea horse valley.
You’ve been through life and death with me.
When the world ends,
It will be in Zen.
You and me sitting happily
Just relaxing counting Z’s.
As beauty explodes before our eyes
Stigma finally set aside
Truth revealed to the naked brain
Everyone else will go insane.
Now with nothing left amiss
You and I floating in bliss
Nothing left to do but kiss.
Cleansing all the doors of perception
More powerful then resurrection
The world we will create
They won’t be able to mutilate.
And we will sit upon a green star,
Watching our world from afar.
Sipping on the Milky Way,
And dreaming days away .
Earth can have heaven and the universe next door
We have all of time to explore!
Not afraid of a black hole
Absorbing my soul
When I’m on your arm
You’ll protect me from any harm.
We’ll pick up Felix from mars,
Go meow at the Dog Star
Until it retires to the west.
(Which we both know is the best)
We’ll camp on the sun for a century
Let the galaxy revolve around you and me.
As we slip into unconsciousness
To dream and reminisce.
Of when you started me acting quite contrarily
And talking so esoterically.
Of when infinity first began.
I love you MandleMan.