The man who lived in the
back of my mind,
has now appeared.
He has always lived in
a fleeting fantasy,
caught between ennui
and discontentment.
But now he lives,
he exists.
Perhaps I am just a bit mad,
Perhaps my unhappiness
has brought me to this
state of mania.
My imagination taking over
every thought process
that I possess.

Perhaps he wasn't really
standing right there,
he wasn't actually
talking to me, with a voice
I could swear I knew.
Maybe tomorrow
I will realize that my mind
hasn't been functioning
quite properly.
That my heart has been
so very lonely,
for such a long time;
that I've let caprice
just build and grow
without any thought
to rationality.

But then tomorrow came.
He was there again.
With the same smile,
the same words spoken.
Only now, I can't seem
to remember my past...

I can see in my mind
a world that is kind
an existence so refined

I can see the design
which is hiding behind
the confused rhythm and rhyme

It can't be too hard to find
if I just follow the sign
and let it lead me to define

I know I can appear blind
and occasionally opine
for past days in the sunshine

I'm sure I can stop
and rewind,
remembering that
LOVE is the bind

It can't be too hard to mend
It takes so much to pretend
I'd rather we all just be friends
Living in a world of no amends

put me on
as you would a shirt,
your hands
reach inside of me,
your head
the center of my heart,
I fit snug against
your belly and
caress your back
with every movement,
my fabric soothes you
each motion you make
pulls my weave tighter
and secures our bond,
my color suits you
choose me each and
every morning
I'll be your armor,
take me off
with the greatest care
press and fold me,
let me rest my
seamly soul
next to your
til the day
turns you

We are one;
one thought
one view
one future
a combined soul
moving forward
to experience life,
to get everything
we can from each day!
We are one;
our hands touch
our lips meet
our hearts collide
in utter joy & fulfillment!
We are one;
with one idea
with one goal
to live happy & free
to be forever
you and me!

some days
I feel blue
I can't explain
why that's true

my thoughts
will stick somewhere
in my past
tears will be there

I won't
be able to shake
this funk I feel
as long as  awake

so I'll try
to not weep
long enough
to fall asleep

for sure
tomorrow
will hold
less sorrow

I am prone to chase the words
words that fill me with courage
courage to probe my feelings
feelings which lead me to peace
peace in my hunt for wisdom
wisdom to accept guidance
guidance from other seekers
seekers who see truth as grace
grace to be open and kind
kind in their pursuit of hope
hope in a future with faith
faith to explore their visions
visions which include freedom
freedom to be who they want
want liberty to be true
true to themselves and others
others will sense their candor
candor can open their hearts
hearts full of caution and need
need for happiness and love
love that can flow free and grow
grow bolder and healthier
healthier with no limits
limits waived to let in ease
ease to speak sad, bad or glad
glad for the attention paid
paid with interest rendered
rendered with care and silence
silence to own the moments
moments of brave and real words
words that play their part fully
fully fulfilling their aim
aim to relay ideas
ideas that add a depth
depth of spirit and purpose
purpose to convey knowledge
knowledge to fit in the scheme
scheme to spread peace,hope and truth
truth will overwhelm their souls
souls which want to sway and shout
shout out with passionate joy
joy that arrives with frankness
frankness that has radiance
radiance with daring flare
flare that will inspire sharing
sharing our every thought
thought thrown out to reach and teach
teach each other that words help
help to heal all that we feel

Say something to me now
anything is better than this and how

I need the words said
not just assumed instead

Express yourself; it's only me
try to let your thoughts be free

Your being here isn't enough
I've decided to call the bluff

So speak to me from your heart
or I fear we will have to part
Iif you can't meet my needs
admit to it and concede

SHE
She's so tall, so fair
with gorgeous fine hair
her smile is quick, sweet and free
with lips made to please
kissing with such ease
her laughter will bring you glee

She's a green eyed lass
delicate as glass
precious from the start
she's been touched with grace
a cute, freckly face
and a pure forgiving heart

HE
He's tall with fine eyes
hands just the right size
he's very kind and thoughtful
he walks with head high
he talks with no lies
having a soul so peaceful

With eyes of deep brown
his smile calms you down
he was created to charm
using his sweet voice
he'll make the best choice
his motto "to never harm"

THEY
They met on a flight
attached at first sight
for hours they held their fortune
then the plane landed
so they were candid
caught up in their emotions

they were sure of this
they shared their first kiss
the next hours spent in rapture
now choices to make
wild chances to take
together is their future

sometimes I wonder
where new words
will come from,
all the words juggle
for position in  my mind..
my thoughts grab onto a few,
puts them into an order
that might create sense;
perhaps they will succeed
or maybe I need to dig
a little bit deeper to
find that one perfect word,
that makes it fit together..
sometimes the words just
glide gracefully along with
a harmony of their own;
but at other times
it can be a
painstaking process that
can cause much agony,
until the right words are
pulled from my mind,
landing side by side
on my blank paper in
some mystifying fashion
that brings me
satisfaction

I watch from the window
I see the gardener there
As he approaches each shrub
As he caresses every foot of hedge
This I see from my lofty ledge

She comes along then
And takes her seat
Watching him in the summer heat
Seeing him reach and bend
Wishing she could be his friend

He notices her nearness
Sensing her following gaze
He smiles to himself in wonder
Would he  find the right words to say
Could he muster the courage today


Watching them
Watching each other
I realize people often play safe
Not wanting to make a mistake
But wishing to try for loves sake

On the last day of another year
I think, I sigh, I shed a tear

So much has come my way
many a beautiful, awe-filled day

All the love I've been given
within this faith I've been livin

All the faces I've greeted
such lovely souls I have meeted

So another year has come to pass
I feel its gains and losses, alas

I thank the blessed year for its glee
it has ended and I feel I'm a better me

A bit wiser and thoughtful; a year older
more informed and a wee bit bolder

Before I met him
I was sure I knew myself
Before I met him
I thought I knew what I needed
But he broke through
every preconceived notion
that I possessed
Before I used to know what was
good, true  & right
Now it doesn't matter about
the appearances--they can really
be way too deceiving
Before I lived a life
of uncertainty, monotony
& sheer loneliness
Living with an ache
for completeness
deep within my soul
His presence has brought me
peace, happiness & a sense
of belonging
Before I met him
I was ready to submit
to my destiny
I was prepared to take
what I had, accept my lot in life
But now, since I met him
I'm not so sure that
I want to give in,
I'm not so sure I
want to settle--
& live my life
as I had before.....

Dark and gloomy night
The sky like a blinking screen
Ink stains the plain page
Leaving ebony designs
Which heighten our dreams

a dark night
that turned into
three days

at first the
sorrowful mind
its roaming maze

then came
the sad pitiful
crying phase

turning into
the grieving
silent grays

ending with a
succumbing sigh
into a dismal haze

what started out as
innocent, fun and delight,
as natural as breathing;
quickly turned to serious,
complicated and exquisite,
a mutual need being met;
leaving one wondering
if it was ever just
innocuous pleasure?

don't let time trap you
fling off your woes for today
come and binge on life
go off on a spree of love
it's such a beautiful world

come on..
kiss me from head to toe
lick me about to and fro

come..
touch me here and there
let your hands roam anywhere

now..
flip me over when we're done
get ready to hit another run

then..
lay beside me through the night
arm around me..pull me in tight

A sweet treat
A smooth heat
A bitter bite
A mellow delight
A delicate taste
So pleasantly placed
Perfect pleasure
To be had at your leisure
Flavored with a hint
Of refreshing peppermint
An essence of orange
A joy on the tongue
Melt in the mouth sensation
Rewarding any occasion
Chocolate's so dark and glossy
Mood soothing mystery
Try some and you'll see

you tell me what you need to hear;
I'll do the same and we'll make this very clear

you give me what I'm looking for now;
I'll do the best I can to please you and how

we can carry on in this blissful lie;
til guilt turns up with the cast of the die

then you will move on to other tragic,
deserted parts
and I'll trudge  along, to the next
in line of lonely hearts

If all you can see is black and white
Then you are missing such wonder and delight

If you only see the snow or the dirt
Then who can help you when you really hurt

If you only think in either ink or chalk
Then you have never taken a proper walk

Blood runs red in every vein
The sea is blue, stop and feel the rain

Grass is  so green, a lemon so yellow
Nature so precious, as is the ordinary fellow

The world, an amazing jungle
Live in awe of its colors
Experience all it has to offer
Be observant, conscious dwellers

In that fragment
of a moment
I felt content

A perfect sunset
day ends pleasant
with pure enjoyment

With a need so urgent
no second to neglect
satisfaction, I respect

Does happiness have a scent
Do we delight in its ornament
anticipating its' precious event

But when bliss is absent
if pleasure be upset
all we feel is regret

Joy to what extent
fills us with sentiment
swaying our every talent


Breathless and bent
full of gladness and
Wonderment

Two by two
it is all around me
The sweet balm
of a loves calm
The walking pace
of lovers' space

Sorted by pairs
trekking about
hand in hand
They seem to just
implicitly understand

The dyadic duo
I met on a plane
captivated my mind
They seemed as if
they were just designed
to live life intertwined

This coupledom domain
is where I desire to reside
Being mated and fated,
forever to be with
my lover glorified

How do I figure out how to go
I need to just exit without the show

I want to run to something new
but how can I; when I feel dark and blue

I don't want to hurt anymore
of that one thing, I am for sure

I want a life that is quiet and facile
free from heartache, scorn and hassle

I want a future that bursts into song
I need the evenings to be daring and long

I'd like my days to explode with zest
my spirit to have been deeply caressed

This is all I want; it seems so simple
why do I find it is so unachievable

In his eyes I see
love, longing
and fear

In my eyes he sees
happiness, trust
and devotion

In his arms I feel
safe, accepted
and free

In my arms he feels
comfort, approval
and welcomed

In his life
I have found
my sweet spot

In my life
he has found
his last home

Why do you act like that
Why will you not react

Why now, do you turn away
Why, you know I want you to stay

Why can't you look at me
Why is it you loathe what you see

Why have you become so cold
Why believe what you've been told

Why would you ask me to go
Why, what is it I don't know

Why not shout and say it aloud
Why do you have to be so proud

why should you have doubt
that's like a deep dark black hole
there is no known end
when you question you will lose
that battle just can't be won

You need nothing but your smile
no cares, no worries, no style

As we venture out on an escapade
to ensure that our dreams never fade

Walk, talk, laugh and love
nothing else but heaven above

We roll in the clover,
one under, one over

We dare to caper away together
we don't even stop to notice the weather

When it starts to rain, we don't care
we giggle and find some cover to share

Oh, and when the night comes rolling in
that's when we know what this day has been

If but once in a while, we can take a chance
going off to explore in our lover's dance

Then we can suffer the days apart
knowing there's no end to what we let start

a statue with no head
a woman with no voice
both ogled after
both wondered of

one is insignificant
one made invalid
both remain silent
both testifications
......of bigotry

both holding the powers
......of humanity
......of hatred
......of censure
both holding back
the crowds
with their consequences

If I believe in fate
then how do I explain him

He's here, he's in my head
he's invaded my heart

But does he belong here?

He's my waking thought
my sleeping dreams
my soul's happiness
my body's ecstasy

He's my pasts emptiness and
he's my futures presents

But maybe fate is just a
subconscious wish that
I'm destined to believe

Call him up on the phone
Remind him to bring along the bone
That they will use to beat the drum
Letting all know it's time to come

Placing the crown upon the head
Of the fool elected to play dead
The cage is filled with eleven doves
Passed around are as many gloves

All stand in line and face the west
No time to waste, not time for rest
They begin to sing their fraternity song
Hoping this evening nothing goes wrong

Which pledge will be the chosen one
Whom all will worship with the rising sun
Another will pass the test of the wood
He will then have everything given him good

let us steal the night
yet return our innocence
let us dream of peace
but fight to release the light
we contradict our own thoughts

if but halfway in
in a sense still halfway out
and when halfway up
turn round and it's halfway down
being just part of a whole

In her vacant eyes
I finally see what was never there
that familiar indifferent stare
In her hollow talk
I now hear all the excuses so clear
the way she stays unaffected and bare

When I arrived in her life
her secrets were already made
over the years I've watched her fade
with here empty phrases
with never a promise laid
she's always hedged toward the shade

Wanting some truths; I asked
I found answers that day in the park
when I questioned her demeanor so stark
How much blame do I lay at her feet,
her experiences had left their mark
she can't see her way from the dark

The mind runs like a ferris wheel
with the heights you see what's real
turning round on round sets the seal

The body is made of priceless gold
it's value increases as we grow old
this magnificent system is so bold

And there the soul shall always dwell
living in and about and parallel
influencing all moral and emotional

come near to me
and you will see
I'm just a woman
who chooses to be
humble and patient;
a veiled she.
a woman who
has found her key,
which happens to be
hidden under her beauty,
completely verified
each day on bended knee;
because it is to God
that I owe this fee.
a servant to her
faith; that's me
while still a woman who
loves to be called baby.
so please understand
my inclinations are free
approach me, speak with me
I'm sure you will agree
differences, we have not many
I wish you peace, honey

his words are my joy
his voice can calm me each time
his sins matter not
his eyes show me his goodness
so now even I am his

all I thought was "HUH"
my reaction to his rant
"HUH" was all I said
then I turned and walked away
I chose to end it with grace

If we could mend a soul
with a quick and easy fix
If we could just jump into
the chaotic spinning mix

Then life wouldn't really be
worth the gold
Which we find buried within
every persons' story told

We must find time to
listen, love and learn
This in and of itself is the
only way to catch your
worldly turn

My body is my house
furnished with secrets most
my bones are its host.
My soul is my home
where I learn to feel, to cope
my spirit the hub of my hope.
My faith is my hearth
center of every stroke and beat
my blood is my hushed heat.
My truth carries honor
at the helm I make a bold start
courage is held in my heart.
I hunger for wisdom
I dream of harmony, of kindness
my haven is pure happiness.
Hallelujah!  ready on my lips
a healing harbor on the make
Salaam!  with every handshake

Ignorance is no longer bliss
It is downright dangerous

Not understanding your fellow man
No more trying to do the best you can
Not learning the lay of the land
No time spent just trying to comprehend

Living life in an unmindful daze
Ignoring the signs of this extraordinary phase
Spending your time in an uninformed haze
Disregarding what is right in front of your gaze

So stop and spend time to discover
Just what hides behind every man's cover
To gather insight you might need to hover
Just stay the course and you'll eventually conquer

Once you stop neglecting the people you meet
Once you stop skipping by them in the street
Then you'll become aware that sharing is a treat
Then you'll go out of your way to make sure you greet

Being informed and mindful, that is bliss
Wanting to be you best and never feeling amiss

You run hot, you run cold
This attitude of yours, is getting old
I'm getting tired of being told
That the way I am, is just too bold
I don't need a lecture, no time to scold
I don't want to wait til the bell has tolled
I need someone that I can hold

You figure that you can mold
Me into some token of gold
Then when you're done, I unfold
I am then ready to be sold
My soul has been rolled
Tucked up into the fold
I no longer have to try to uphold
This game of illusions when polled

Eventually
it will be over

Eventually
it will end

Eventually
it will be gone

Eventually
I will lose

Eventually
I will hurt

Eventually
I will be without

Eventually
I will suffer

Eventually
Eventually

Who I am
Can only be
Because of who I was
Who I are
Can only come
From who I were
Who I is
Will always be
Who I am
Because it's me!
I am
I are
I is
I be
I was
I were
A living free
A giving me!

Read this fast
Pure as a song
Read this quick
You can't go wrong
For there's  a sign
That you belong
Among the brave
Amongst the strong

I love fast
I love strong
I love like a red, hot flame
branding my flesh with your name

I love quick
I love long
I love like a deep oceans' storm
climbing with waves to your form

I love with frenzy
I love with madness
I love like a summer's tempest
leaving in my wake an answered quest

I love without doubt
I love without pause
I love like a flowing field of grain
taking the pleasure and the pain

I love through the day
I love through the night
I love like blue indigo dye
giving off the answers to why

sitting in the dark
my head full of words
words that weren't mine
words that weren't kind

can things end like that
what about our souls
is it impossible to be kind
even when another possesses my mind

guilt drums through me
but is it for him or
for me, and all the years
of constant flowing tears

so what do I do
when the dawn breaks
will I still be sitting here
or gone and over there

do I choose what makes me happy
or stay out of a sense of religious duty

A flower is born beautiful
sweet in its unconsciousness
serene with its tenderness

A flower will freely
surrender to the winds
with endless twists and bends

A flower stands helpless
speaking although silent
with a voice so fragrant

A flower expresses love
is given to glory the dead
The majesty of a flowers' bed

A flower is an object of Art
their sight causes pure pleasure
an exquisite gift from nature

We each have a vision of love
what we believe love looks like
whether it is white or red heat
that gets our hearts to beat

There is the fantasy which some hold
that love will arrive in a perfect package
this breaks every realm of reality
only happening in the depths of poetry

And illusions of happily ever after
disregard all of common sense
love is like a clear blue sky
which instantly can turn grey and smoky

If you find love grab hold of it
live in the happiness it brings
share yourself without restrictions
let your mind be free of expectations

I feel released
no constraints
no permission needed
move as I wish
do as I please
I laugh and sing
Ropes are loosened
that once cut off
my circulation
I now breath
without restriction,
I stretch and grow
I feel free
I feel good
I am delivered
dance through the night
catching dawns skyline
in love and happy

Sometimes you see a love
that's like poetry in motion,
just the truth of two souls
without any pretensions

Carrying the same rhythm
they meet each other halfway,
finding within a harmony
that will forever make then stay

Sometimes the connection is subtle
so subtle it's painfully obvious
there's joy, there's such comfort
years on they are still impetuous  

Giving all of yourself to another
maybe that is what life should be
a commitment never spoken of
an answer to an unasked plea

Little white lies
as they slither through a life
like a worm through the earth
leaving tracks in the truth

Little white lies
as they tangle within relationships
saying yes when feeling no
keeping quiet to save the sorrow

Little white lies
as they interweave through the years
knitting the fake amidst the cake
hiding the false for loves sake

Little white lies
as they ramble through the mind
getting lodged against things real
affecting what bits to let reveal

Little white lies
as they twist and turn
can make an unremoveable stain
leaving behind an insane pain