every minute
I waste
every hour
I consider
      &
still you're
not here
every day
you make
me wait
each month
I reexamine
your hold
each year
I need to
wander
how much
can I take
something
just has to
break

The way I feel
I can not define
I don't want to
analyze or judge
I don't wish to
spurn nor slight
these feelings,
these pleasures
I've come to
rely on them
to count them
my delights--
our passions
emotions shared

So I'll just feel;
welcome and accept
permit and give
with my heart open
with my  soul willing

It's a shame
we didn't meet before

It's a shame
we neither one is free

It's a shame
we can't
respond outwardly
to what we
desire inwardly

It's a shame
I'll never be able
to forget
our moments
together

demand obedience
of me whilst my
adoration
showers over you

devour my soul
with your longing
while I smother
your spirit

destroy my trust
with your silence
then I'll slaughter
your heart
with my touch

I am daring you
to ignore me

a statue with no head
a woman with no voice
both ogled after
both wondered of

one is insignificant
one made invalid
both remain silent
both testifications
......of bigotry

both holding the powers
......of humanity
......of hatred
......of censure
both holding back
the crowds
with their consequences

why should you have doubt
that's like a deep dark black hole
there is no known end
when you question you will lose
that battle just can't be won

all I thought was "HUH"
my reaction to his rant
"HUH" was all I said
then I turned and walked away
I chose to end it with grace