I am the reason you wake in the morning

When your in the showers I serenade you with your favorite songs

I'm the one you turn to when your lost

If your un sure you always ask me and I'll tell you the truth

I capture every memory every moment of you and I

I keep in touch with all your friends

I help you plan your day,your life

I know more about you than your closest friends

I am the last thing you see before you rest your head

But that man over there
He loves you
Loves you more than I ever could

You see your his girl his world and I am your life

You caught my eye,
nothing stopped
but everything went silent

There's a darkness grown upon me
And threw my eyes you can see
The vacancy that I must feed
With melancholy and misery

Everything I'd be has escapes me
The eveil has erased me
The Demond's
They still chase me
And my great escape is apathy

at times I reminisce
I think of our first kiss
I wake from dreams
and remember your tinder, quivering lips

I can still picture your smile
the way your cheeks would recoil from your chain
as if they were trying to cover your eye lids

I get lost in the moment
when the sun would shimmer of your face
in first morning light

no make up
hair all mess
hiding under the covers from the day
and how pitiful an innocent your voice crept out
you'd say "morning  babe"

id have a cup coffee for you
your face alone
said it was the greatest jester know to man

I miss holding your hand in public
I miss how much you would blush
when I kissed you in front of your friends
most of all I miss the fact you were my best friend

but every good thing comes to an end
what could of been
should of been

never was
never will be

and it breaks my heart to know your happy with him

chained in a dungeon
no one can reach you
at the top there's a window
it has bars running threw it
so no chance of escape
you can see all the people
and what's going on
but when people pass by
you cant scream at all
your throat is to dry
from not eating
or drinking for weeks
your under weight
skin dangles from your bones
your eyes are black
from no sleep
and selling your sole
shaking chained to the floor
its completely dark
aside from the ceiling hole
you hear the gnarling and gnashing of teeth
you hear the beast get closer as it creeps
you cant run away
you cant scream for help
your shaking
crying
my addiction has imprisoned me
into true hell

i want a new love
I want sweaty palms
a rapid heart beat
I want to stu stu stu
stumble over my words when you talk to me

I want something brand new
doesn't have to be love
maybe a fling?
I just want the next best thing

we could go to the beach
awkward as hell
no one in the car saying a peep

or we could lay in the street
look at the stars
is show you how they spell out your name

maybe a night club?
we'd dance
id make an *** of my self
just to se you laugh

yes this would be nice
no amazing
scratch that
bitter sweet

if only I could get over the past

First time I saw you I knew I had to have more
Opening my heart on that bedroom floor
Regardless if I came off as a bore


The second you denied me a kiss I thought
How can I get her not to resist
Every moment mattered, not one could be missed

Laing in bed thinking
Only if I could get you to give in
Now were more then friends
Going steady I believes what they said
Every time we speak I fall deeper within
Saying to our selves
This could be it

To much trust for one man to comprehend
I gave up on us and hurt my best friend
My selfishness lead us to one thing, an that was the
End

no surprise to me today
the pain it seems its here to stay
seasons change sky's turn gray
an loneliness never seems to go away

demands seem to follow me
they always seem to haunt my dreams
day to day they speak to me
lets go out and have a drink

I've ran away
I've  hid for days
but it seems addiction holds my chains