six foot tall
but I should be six foot deep
I remember thinking
if I keep this up
ill be pushing daisy's by the end of the week

I made it out of the streets
only with the power
of something bigger than me

selfish deeds cost more that you think
it can cost your life
your job
your family
your peace

first thing to go
is moral mentality
then your heath
your friends
next thing you know
you have a psychopathic personality
it pulls you in stronger than gravity

I found out first hand
trust me
that's a place you don't want to be
leave the drugs alone
they'll destroy
your life
worst of all
your dreams

it will leave your bare
only thing left
suicidal tendencies

this is not a democracy!
this is a nation of hypocrisy
the only chance of survival
is a frontal lobe lobotomy

creativity is a dying breed
open your mind
look around
tell me what you truly see
Beautiful minds dying on the streets every day

this country was founded on dreams
now day were focused on gay marriage
and smoking ****

find your passion
whether its fashion
a paint can
or the musical aspect

plant the seed
lets make its a place people want to be

to be honest

I ****** up
I abused your trust
I went back to drugs
for some reason your love
just wasn't enough

I told you every secret
every skeleton in my closet
ever scream heard echo down the hall

an for what
for you to put down your wall
for me to rip into you
tear your heart to shreds
i abandoned you
left you
alone
cold

left you for dead

I told you about every suicide attempt
every girl I slept with
every time I gave in
i showed you the dark that lives within
i showed you my scars
and what each one of them meant

you trusted me
you looked up to me
you cherished me
and you loved me

after all that i left you with this
hey
did you hear
Travis is a potential suicide risk

I miss the way youd bite my lip
I miss when youd dragging your fingers
down my ribs
as if you were strumming the strings on a guitar

the way you arch your back when im digging in
never holding back
it was just all fun in till then

we would stay up late
id watch you sleep
I miss you sleeping chest to cheek
your the best thing to see when id wake

I miss your laugh
I miss your smile
I miss those blue eyes
I could see from miles

I hate the fact we would never fight
I hate how I fiend to see you every night
I hate how you were always by my side
I hate how we had to say good bye

I hate that I was broke without a job
I hate that that never bothered you at all
I hate how I miss your touch
I hate the fact that I fell in love

ive been searching for a word to say
a word that could describe every day
a word that is more powerful
then the scent of autumn rain
a word that forms a picture
that captures the moment
like when im with you
how I feel like our two souls
are intertwined
how we are no longer relevant
to space
or time
a word that tells a story in just a few letters
one that could capture the emotion
of when you would look deep into my eyes
then whisper
goodnight
when we would lay in the road
stare at the sky
how i your hand
the whole night
it cant be a word that is easily abused
it must be strong
like when I hug you
in till oxygen no longer exists
in our lungs
this word must mean all these things at once
basically
what im trying to say
is
when im with you
everything
is



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