before you leave me forever,
promise me one thing.
promise me that
you'll remember me
as that girl
laying on your chest,
that cold December night.
(it was so magical,
I never thought we'd end after that night.)

remember me
as that girl
with beautiful blue-green eyes.
(but I never thought they were all that special.)

remember me
as that girl
with that loud, obnoxious laugh,
that I was so incredibility insecure about,
but you thought it was lovely.
(it isn't, you are.)

and, remember me
as that girl
with long, straight, red hair.
(which I never really liked straight.
but you did,
so I kept it that way.)

but, most of all,
promise me
that you'll remember me
as that girl
who gave you the biggest chunk of her heart
that she's ever given anyone,
because she loved you so much.
(and I still do.)

but, promise me this:
promise me
that you don't remember me
as that girl
who sobbed everytime she saw you
with someone new.
(why don't you miss me,
like I miss you?)

and as that girl
who screamed
"*******"
while fighting on the phone,
which led to our train
running off it's tracks.
(I'm really sorry.)

don't remember me
as that girl.
because, the girl that I really am,
she loved you so much.
so much, that in fact,
she forgot how to love herself
when you left.
(I wish you'd come back,
and show me what it's like
to be okay again.)

*(m.f.)

I gave you
e v e r y t h i n g.
and I did all that,
just to watch you
w a l k
a w a y
with my love,
and my sanity.

she acts like winter,

trying to keep warm

but still so cold,

she falls like rain,

coming down hopelessly,

colliding with the ground below,

she knows not of how

hurt she really is,

but inside is a heart,

broken,

shattered in many pieces,

that cannot be put back

together

disregarding of everything
you once knew
for the person
you used to be
all to be left on your own
by the one who promised they'd stay