You don't know
What it's like

To be sneered at
To be judged

For your looks
Your body size
Your height
Your intelligence
The whole idea of yourself

How would you
Even come close
To understanding
When you were born perfect
Unlike me

That's something
You'll never ever understand

So don't act
Like you "get" me
'Cause you *don't

I hate it
When I feel
Like maybe secretly
Nobody really cares
I'm so deprived
So I imagine
That they do

No matter what

You said
Or did

I just can't
Bring myself

To ignore you
Treat you like
A stranger

When I have cared
For you
Too much

Once I do
I never stop caring

You should know
Better than anyone

*You made me this way

Why does it takes
So little time
To love

But an eternity
To stop loving?

Quivering lips
Teary eyes
Blotched face

All these, honey
Are symptoms
Of heartbreak

I hide my pain
Behind laughters

Making jokes
About you and her
Like I don't care

Sleepless nights
Planning so that
She'll be yours

"This is what
best friends are for,"
I whispered

You grinned
In gratitude

Everything's okay

I just can't
Let you get hurt

Even if it means
Hurting myself

I saw you
Confessing your love
To her

As she threw her arms
Around your neck
And kissed you

I smiled
As my heart cracked

Eyes filled
With unshed tears

we used to be as close
as the sea and the shore
the world is nothing
against us
we tore apart all the expectations
and made our own
inseparable and honest
that was our motto
but one day
we started drifting apart
like there is this
invisible wall
acting as a barrier
between us
we confronted each other
tried breaking down the wall
I guess it didn't worked
I tried hard enough
maybe you didn't
maybe you just stopped caring
a feat I could've never done
as you were my friend
my best friend
maybe our friendship
was meant to end this way
maybe I did mistakes
maybe you did
maybe we both did
but it doesn't matter anymore
as there's nothing worth saving
not anymore