I wanted to tell you
How sad I am
And how much my body hurts.

I wanted to tell you
Tonight I’m crying myself to sleep
And I wish I could have a hug.

I wanted to tell you
But you’ve had such a good day
And I know you can’t help.

I wanted to tell you
But I couldn’t say the words
So I sent you a meme.

I'm blaming myself for something I didn't do
I'm destroying myself over what happened to you
Soon I'll be back where I was
Soon I'll be back in my suicidal way of life
Crying myself to sleep each night
Regretting every word I've ever written

This cycle's beginning again
The nightmares are coming back
Not eating right anymore
Thoughts are invading my head
I hate being alone

It is my fault
I let it happen
I could've stopped it
I should've stopped it
I let this happen
It's all my fault

If I were to die tonight, would you be there to hold my hand?
If I were to cry tonight ,would you be there to wipe the tears away?

If you were brave enough, would you tear my life from me?
If I asked, would you forgive me?
If I cared, would you abandon me?
If I was cold, would you let me freeze?
If I said I liked you, would you hate me?
If you said you loved me, would you regret it forever?

If I were to cry tonight, would you be there to wipe the tears away?
If I were to die tonight, would you be there to hold my hand?

.    Dark red and broken
     Fleeing from life

Panic strikes fear into your heart
Has she done the thing you swore you wouldn't let her

     Watching the rose leaves fall
     As my life is ebbing away

You dial her number wishing she will pick up
Hardly do you know how far shes gone

     I dropped enough hints begging for him to help
     But I'm here now and he never even saw it coming

You knew you didn't want to leave because you knew she would
And now you're so far away unable to help

     I have done what I said I would
     And I have left my time to pass through

You're finally with her but the only thing is
You came too late to save her.

I can't wait to see the stars with you again
Just to spend another day with you is all I could wish for
Dreaming of you and I wake in tears
Cause all I want is you
I feel so empty when you're gone

I watch the stars for you each night
Wishing that you're alright
Wanting to have you here with me
Hoping that you won't remain a memory

I'm laying on this bed again
And the walls look only all too familiar
The machines keep bleeping
Saying I'm alive and breathing
It's not the first time I've been here
It's not the first time I've tried to disappear

At first it was all just a joke
At first it was just for attention
I have gotten myself addicted to this
I don't wanna stop till the day I die

White walls and people in coats
Telling me they are gonna put me somewhere safe
Where I don't have to worry
Cause I won't hurt myself anymore
Only hell is comparative to that place
I don't wanna go there again
They sent me nuts the first time

An addiction I don't want to destroy
It's not a coping method
It's the way of life
This is my life.

You say I'm on the high road
I'm up here on the edge
And I'm going jump

I can't take this
Sleep deprived and dead on the floor
Some say it was accidental
But they all know I'd tried this before

Take a walk in my world
And tell me where I went wrong
Talk a walk in my shoes
And sing my last song

Take a walk with me
And take all the time in sight
Take a walk in my room
And take my music, my life

All the bears can gather dust
All the metal can turn to rust
Don't wipe me from existence
Just learn to forget me