I can't take it anymore,
I can't stand this mess.
I need to find a way out,
Of this never ending stress.
The rising pressure, inside,
I no longer wish to hide.
The anger, wrath,
I'm tired of this path.
The boring, mundane,
I'm going insane.
As I try to combat,
But fail to contain.
This chaos, amok,
That runs in my brain.
I want to scream out, stop,
Emancipate me from this pain!

2/10/13

If tears could solve all my problems,
I'd cry a big long river.
But tears can't solve any problems,
Which is why I will not cry.
Despair won't fix anything,
Which is why I'll continue to try,
To fix my problems like a man,
And work till I collapse and die.
People that I know often wonder,
They come to me and ask why,
Why I work so much, and try so hard,
If I'm just trying to get by.
I usually turn to all these people,
And I look them in the eye,
I tell them the reason why I want to try
is so I can be a better guy.

12/10/12

Wait a second,
am I dead?
Nope.
I'm just stuck in a hospital bed.
What???
Why am I in a hospital?
Oh yeah, I remember.
I fell.
Hard.
And gave myself a concussion.
How did I fall?
I wish I could remember.
Do I even want to remember?
Wait a second,
am I dreaming?
Cause there's too many things I can't recall.
Nope.
The IV line running into my veins feels too real.
In fact,
it's probably pumping me full of painkillers.
Which might be why I feel like I'm dreaming.
Or am I dreaming?
Wait a second,
am I dead?

9/17/12

I watch the skies,
for lofty clouds,
so beautiful, peaceful, and white.

And I think of you,
as clouds come into view.
You're the cause of my heart's delight.

Whenever you're blue,
I am sad too,
my skies will darken with rain.

But as soon as I hear,
your laughter so clear,
I no longer feel any pain.

So to you I inquire,
Do you also desire,
to come find clouds to see?

Because my worries go away,
and it's a brighter day,
whenever you are here with me.

8/29/12

Sleep, oh sleep,
how I need you today.
I want to fall in my bed,
and sleep my problems away.
You're my comfort, my drug,
my most desperate need.
Please take away my sorrows,
to you I plead.
Please allow me to forget,
even temporarily,
my frustration and regret,
my inability,
to do the things I need to do,
but do not have time for.
Since all I do is sleep all day,
and at night I sleep some more.

2/29/12