a strange sense of peace fills me when i stand by the shore
the wind isnt a bother
nor are the gulls
if i were part of the ocean, would that peace be eternal?

i want to dissolve into the ocean waves
               lose what little identity i have
the soft splashing
the high tides
                      will death be my liberator
                 from this endless suffocation

my heart hurts when you cross my mind
i ask myself, if it'll ever stop
but
for some odd reason, i dont want it to
maybe to punish myself
for pushing you away
but
you werent good for me, i know
so then why am i so
hopelessly fixated on you?
satiate my neverending train of thoughts
give me the closure i crave
darling tell the memories of you
to loosen their hold