Why am I an option
When you are my soul thought

Why must this heart of mine try
When it only ends in pain

Why do I feel this way
When I know who you long for

Why is everything so stacked
When everyone else has it easy

Why am I happy
When you smile about someone else

Why has everyone left me
When all I'm looking for is...

Time passes and wounds heal
scars of past loves mark my body
each day fading more and more

Even when they open back up
all I do is smile and endure
for time heals all, even if it heals slow

We look upon an older gentlemen.
Going through life, nothing special.
Working towards an end.
But one day, looking through old memorabilia.
He stumbles upon a long lost chest.
Brushing off the dust he opens it.
Hes heart jumps.
Lost notes from a love long gone.
But never forgotten.
Riffling through the chest he finds,
Pictures
Love notes
Old poems
And a ring.
Holding these small little trinkets.
A tear runs down hes check.
Everything happens for a reason.
Through all this a warmth flows through him.
He takes one last look at everything.
Puts everything back.
And goes back to the life that was found.
For the past is nice for a visit but life moves forward.

What happens
When a spark dies?
A light goes out?
A heart gives in to the pain?
Do you shut yourself away
Do you try to hide
From even the closest friends
When you are beset by darkness
Should not the stars shine
For every pice of coal
Presser is needed to make a diamond
Think of it not as a death
But as a new canvases
That needs to be cleaned
To put better works on
Every diamond was coal
So darkness is not the end
Only the beginning

Why do we fight?
Every day we wake up.
Ready to face another day.
Putting on a play.
For the world to see.
But I have stopped in my rut.
I look up to the sky and ask...
Why?
Why do I make my life this way?
What am I fighting for?
Then I look around me...
I see my family.
I see my friends.
I see a life worth making.

I know.
Not everyone is blessed.
So I ask you this.
Why do you fight?
And what are you fighting for?

Why is it so hard
To tell the fakers
From the friends
They change with the wind
Some days talking,
Laughing, carrying on
And others
Nothing...

Why are there so many?
Why are true friends,
So few...

If you got them
Cherish every memory
For one day
That will be all you have
Raise a glass
For the ones less fortunate


Raise one for me.

Walking around
Eyes staring down
Not looking round
Just stuck
In the rut of life
When I hit a wall
Dazed on my back
But now
Eyes on the open sky
Seeing all the stars
Seeing the unlimited possibilities
I get back up
But will never look down at my feet again.

I'm sitting by the river
Hands clenched
I look down at my hands
Seeing the scares of the stones
The wrinkles of time
But when I look closer
All I see is sorrow
So I open my hands
Watch the pebble fall
To rest upon all the others
I lay back against the shore
And look up at the sky
Seeing all the stars
And realizing that
The world is bigger
Then this little river.

I was a kid
Content with walking the world
Looking at nothing but my feet
Until we crossed paths
And I looked into those hazels pools
Pointed like mine to the ground
Not wanting to cause fuss
What made me go after you that day?
I thought maybe there was another
That would help me
Take my eyes off the ground
And you did
I looked at the world threw new eyes
Not focusing on the what ifs
But that what could bes
When I took your hand
I felt the world shrink
Like anything could happen
We could do anything

I would like to leave this tail on the positive note
But that wouldn't be telling everything
Through dark times
Your eyes drifted
Your grip on my hand loosened
And my eyes started again drifting down
While yours stayed up
I was happy to see how you have grown over our time
But now I'm back to watching the ground
Waiting for my star to return

You are nothing but a dream
Now that you have gone
A dream that I never wanted to wake
But fate stuck his cold hand in
And you left
Not a word why
Just like my dreams
I woke to find you gone

Each night I try and recall
The smell of your hair
The spark of your touch
The warmth of your love
But all I can recall
Is nothing compared

I feel like Icarus
Being able to fly
Love gave me wings
To swore in the heavens
But
Don't be so blind
Everything falls

I fell from the heavens
I still am falling
Forever out of touch
For I
Like Icarus flew to close
And got burned

I don't know why
I still try
I want to stop
But you are my top
Even through the pain
Even with no gain
Love still beats in here
For someone I hold most dear
Trying to make seines of why  
You said goodbye

I feel like Icarus
Being able to fly
Love gave me wings
To swore in the heavens
But
Don't be so blind
Everything falls

I fell from the heavens
I still am falling
Forever out of touch
For I
Like Icarus flew to close
And got burned

I feel like Icarus
Being able to fly
Love gave me wings
To swore in the heavens
But
Don't be so blind
Everything falls

I fell from the heavens
I still am falling
Forever out of touch
For I
Like Icarus flew to close
And got burned

Everyday I see you grow
I am proud of you
Even on your bad days
You are everything to me
And I will do anything for you
I watched you grow up
From a little dancing girl
To a smart proud woman
Everyday you grow more beautiful
Everyday you get stronger
Not just physically but mentally
I love you
And will always be here for you
You are family and family is everything

The mask I wear
For my family
For my coworkers
For my school friends
Is a mask of compleat happiness
No care in the world
But when I'm alone
The mask comes off
And there is the pain I feel
A feeling of loneliness
A feeling of emptiness
That is how I truly feel
Inside, behind my mask

The heat from two body's
As they sleep as one
I can't handle the heat
But with you laying next to me
I would bake and not stir
Laying here remembering
Every bead of sweet
Your breath on my back
I wish it could have lasted forever
But every night has its dawn

I call you sunshine
For the way you light my world
For the warmth you give me
Every morning you great me with that warm smile.

I call you sunshine
Because with out you
I would be cold
I would be in the dark

You are my light
My silver lining
No sunrise to my endless sleep
Nothingness closing in

Silence can ****, as they say
Your silence is worrying
Not knowing what may
Or may not be clicking

In that head of yours
Where you sit in silence
Nothing being said is it forlorn
Are we doomed to dance this dance of ours

From love to confusion
But isn't that what love is
Not knowing what each day brings in it's delusion
Even in your silence I still see us

Tossing and turning
After a fight
After a verbal war
After a stressful day
After a battle of wills

I lay here thinking
What we have
What went wrong
What should I do
What can I say

My sleepless nights
After all we have been through
What will make you mine

This new age of computers and the web
Anyone can do anything
From lead a group of strangers to victory
Speak up without ever having to see another soul
Sharing life with friends long gone
Spread what would have been town gossip
Around the world
It makes super stars
And it can destroy
What is put up in this virtual world
Stays in it
But for all to see
So i guess my message is this
Be careful what you say
Because it always comes back
In good or bad ways

Why are we scared of the dark
The dark holds many mysteries
From the dark deeps of the ocean
To caves
The dark hides many incredible things
It is the unknown we are afraid of
The dark just is the one thing that hides the unknown
So I challenge you
Go outside at night turn off all your lights
And look up
The view from the dark side will take your breath away
I guarantee it

You don't know what you have till it's gone
They always said
But i didn't understand
Till the day we parted ways.

This hole in my heart
This cold feeling spreading
It is an unfamiliar feeling.

They called me ice-man
For dealing with the cold world
But now I don't have my my worm center
To help me fend off the cold.

You don't know what you have till it's gone
Mine isn't gone not yet
But soon
If I don't straiten up
The cold feeling i have
Will forever call my body home.

I keep wanting to wake up
Thinking this is all a bad dream
You are still with me
Still sleeping in my arms
I must have dosed off
But no
There is no weakening from this
From the queasy stomach
To the erg to run to you
To hold you again
And now that everything is alright
I know that i might be down
But I am far from out.

Time can be a prison
time can be a speeding train
when with the right person
time can move slower then the rain

When you are with me
there is no time to spare
every second counts, please
don't let time bring despair

Time moves so slow with out you
some times it moves to fast
when i lose my time i know you are blue
all you need to do is wake me from my time laps

A spark is always present
to start a conversation
to set a fire in ones hart
for one can not love with out that first spark
with out that first sensation there is on everlasting love
there is no love just lust with out a spark
and ones who have lost that spark
I feel for them most for to have lost the spark of love
is to lose the spark of life itself