believing in things that i dont believe in
living a life that everyone is so proud of
acting out quietly and where noone can see me
coddled by the assurance that i will be eternally rewarded
**** me please please please **** this thing i have become

help is a luxury for afforded to those less fortunate
originally that is what i thought
lately i've realized that we are all pretty unfortunate
evil permeates the very existence of man

Have you

Ever felt like

Ideas

Jotted on the

Back

Of a napkin

In some

Celestial bar

I feel the soft

Grass beneath my fingers

Dissolving into dirt

Staring at the sky

Earth swallows

Me whole

The worms crawl through

Me blades of grass take root

In my chest

I am in mothers

Womb but I never

Lose sight of the sun

It shines on me with

The brilliance of life

Tree roots grow under me

Into my mouth

And nose the sun

Bids me rise

My brother tree

Lefts me from

Soil

Holds me in his mighty arms

Lifts me high

An offering

As I grow taller

I play with the

Baby clouds

They run and laugh

Taller

Through clouds

Past sky

In space I grab

Stars

Pop them like pills

Near the sun

I melt

Follow me home

Pretty girl

Take me home

Choke

Down one more

Take one more

**** to yourself

Esteemed ****

Hide one more

Tear

Scream shake

When I get

Off

Pretty

Girl

Your daddy

Didn’t love you

Much

Let me do it too

Drunk

Ugly

Pretty girl

Little pretty girl

Will you **** me

Back home

Pretty

Girl

smile and laugh

Arrows

Missiles

Dancing floating

Dipping tucking diving

Falling in and out

A graceful melody

Full of highs and lows

Direct yet vague

Falling stars in and of each other

One yet many

United in order to divide

Wings songs stories

Birds

Jump

So far down

May be I should

Fling myself from solid ground

Free fall for the rest of my life



Jump

I’ve come too far

No turning back

Leap into the unknown

Free fall for the rest of my life



Jump

Dark bottomless void

Wings will not open

Nothing to hold me back

Free fall for the rest of my life



Jump

Alright  into oblivion

Wind rushes through my veins

A poison is ripped from my bones

Life flows through my finally beating heart

My mind is opened wide

Free fall for the rest of my long life