i had ***
i wasnt married
oh no!!!!! :(
why am i feeling this way?
bliss and misery
tests and (insert hipster word here)

now i shall hate everyone
end poem

wonder how my bother thinks about how high i get
looking at life through someone elses eyelids
crazy when that someone is like your kid
i just wish i could of been better
done more then just tail ride
caught famous people off gaurd
like holy **** there goes that guy
drive past the highschool every day
watch life grow up as if i knew there way
pass through ampm when my stomach and cars on low
three blocks down that road a homie i know
right at fourth and one eye stoop
crazy how life just gets running like a 4 bar loop
i maybe older now but still sit here
over look this field that will be destroyed some time next year
realty is all the sensation
each one of these kids used to be caucasian
not that that matters
or color is different
we all just adapt
when we are the misfit
split lift on heavens road to forgiveness
and im the ones who is the witness
laugh cuz you dont follow
you just wonder why my hearts not hollow
ive grasped more then if there is a god
you cant even count if you only had to do odds

velar from my newport
return to the usual sicked filled court
tired everyday imagine my discomfort
staring at blind lady with no child support
tempered old man
wearing the 3 button sport coat
he old fashion but what he lack tho
is the manners of a young man
working everyday just to afford him
those old ****** got no manners
and the ones who got nothing
see it all

how do you become brave and selfless
how do you teach others that drugs are helpless
stress test
mess confessed
time ridden and now compressed
time has restarted like i finished the fifth
only feelin half of it
spilling no cap on it
bottles killing smash the gift
drunk and trilling mind did shift

im original
put me in a box
tight with concealed holes
gotta fight the thrill tho, of a
never open locked
we all are beloved and shrill toned
with this torture of a never too much time
alone
to be mocked
more like my minds been self loathed
almost time been...

stopped. and
watching these homeless on second while on third
their tanks match mine
at empty
a charger i burn
a quarter or two
cirgerette
with my shame bitter yet
disgust filled regret
22 still not felt threat
of a time not left from death
only watch fellow friends felt debts
or there depths
creepy i wear their shirt

Dont tell them
that im their arched villian
took your girlfriend before,
then it was a fling
who woulda thought youd be the one
to buy her the ring

if you stand for nothing
you will fall for everything
thats why my grandma taught me
to never live in shame
raise your head up
to my right brothers plane
excuses for granted and
tired old people aren't used to the word ****
i cross my fingers
treasure the feeling
nose starts running
white demon
and if we wait until were ready
i will die
we started with a simple hello
and ended with a complicated goodbye
seek woman only for a good time
hope god doesn't mind
we are all gonna use her the same
if you stand for nothing
you will fall for everything
thats why my grandma taught me
to never live in shame