Sophia

Sophia 14h

Chlorine

I rested my head on her shoulder
The smell of chlorine
It was on her clothes
It was in her hair
It was on her skin
I heard her breath
Steady and close
Too close?
Or not close enough?
All I wanted was to stay
To stay with her
But I knew
Of course I knew
I couldn't.

Sophia 14h

Beautiful.

Sometims
People are beautiful
Not in the way they look
Not in what they say
In just the way they are.

Everyone should have someone like that in their life.

Sophia Jun 23

Too fast.

Dried tears
they make my face feel dry and stiff
Clenched fists
They make my hands hurt and tense
My beat up converse
pounding against the pavement
runing from something
I'll never be able to escape
Reality
Growing up
Expectations
It's all coming
too fast.

why is being a teenager so hard

Sophia Jun 20

Uprooted

I don't know where home is
not anymore
they uproot me
again
and again
like a tree that's been moved
too many times
sometimes I wonder
if I'll ever find my own soil
to sink my roots into
if I'll grow strong and tall
without being afraid
of being tore up again.

There is nothing wrose than not knowing where you belong.

Sophia May 20

I'm Tired. I wish I wasn't.

I'm Tired of crying
I'm Tired of trying
I'm Tired of not being good enough
I'm Tired of friendships
I'm Tired of relationships
I'm Tired of being a disappointment
I'm Tired of being abused
I'm Tired of being confused
I'm Tired of changing who I am
I'm Tired of being neglected
I'm Tired of being rejected
I'm Tired of feeling alone
I wish I was lighter
I wish I was brighter
I wish I didn't hate myself
I wish I was braver
I wish I was safer
I wish I knew who I was
I wish I was surer
I wish I was purer
I wish I wasn't broken
I'm Tired.
I wish I wasn't.

Aren't we all though?

May 19

stephanie

truth

my feelings
are not a plea
for attention.

#feelings #truth

May 19

Rose

I See You

i see you
crying in silence,
trying not to be heard,
trying not to be seen.

i see you
wiping away your tears,
trying not to be sensitive,
trying not to be a burden.

all you wanted
was someone to hold your heart
with the same softness
you held theirs.

i’m sorry no one saw you.
but—
i see you.
i hear you.

and i love you.

a letter to my younger self, you were too young to be holding it all in for the sake of others.

#past #littlegirl #young #mommyissues #daddyissues