Asking weather he does or he doesn't
You will rip yourself apart
Every layer every tug will come at a cost
It wont hurt for you seek answers
For you are foolishly blind
Trying to feel as you tear up inch by inch of your heart
To the warmth of the sun you woke up with such hopes
Sharing your color with the rest of the world
And the smell of your petals is what lured such dark shade
As you did not pick him but he picked you instead
You felt touched and desired but a display you became
Sadly but true you started to fade
Soft and then lifeless your body expressed
Nothing more than a moment that's been taken away
You realized a pain that is no longer there
You've been return to the grounds from where you once came

I keep trying to breathe underwater
To find the treasure that's never been seen
As I think I get closer, my soul begins to leave
For I can't hold it any longer it's like faith is avoiding me
A desire of having a slightest glimpse is over killing me
The cold of its depth is crippling, as I try to break free
But even in that moment I can only feel peace
For I've witness my true power for loving what I've never seen

I feel so lost and confused in the graveyard of my dreams
Like a crystal circus ball where the timeline's infinite
Although I am young and full to my capacities
I am shackled to a sorrow that has no destiny
For so it's been told at least it's been making me believe
Of someone that I know nothing of nor ever even seen
Just a comment just a thought
Maybe the ignorance of fools that just might be
That lurked into the deepest part of me
Where I've been used as a tool
To be the one where they have unburden their own self pity
As here I am now in the remainder of their ashes
There is filth there is darkness
An uncertainty that scares all calmness
There is more than only madness
There, I lay there in the obscureness of my answers
Of the person that I might be or never ever see

How hard do I have to shut my eyes for the tears not to come out?
Is that not the solution?
For the pain drowning me inside

Why does it hurt if it's only water I drop?
Why do I cry if I have my eyes shut?

Maybe I screamed, maybe I said what I did not mean,
But I gave you something from me

Why, did you not want it?
What was it that you didn't like?

But, you know what?
I will try not to care
I will let it all out

I will open my eyes
And shower the ground
I will not drown for what you answered back

Clear crystal water drops so bitter and dry
to the taste of the my mouth

A gift from my heart
The gift of a life
And you, you ignored it gave it your back

It's great, you've only injured me hard
And don't worry about me
Shall I not worry about this

I will comfort my ego
And forget that my eyes could've ever shed a tear

It burns when the tears come out, with a runny nose
And the sadness taking over my pale face

It's that feeling of emptiness
That dries my soul, leaves it weak with no colors of joy

The tinggleing around my body a fear thinking of tomorrow
and not seeing the daylight once more

Killing the family circle and wondering if it really broke
Imagine me not here at least not anymore
Here comes that feeling of emptiness making me feel that I dont belong

For how can it burn?

The feeling is too strong
As my eyes turn red and my tears are warm

They're too salty I think
But again they're washing the bitter away

It's that feeling of emptiness I can't make go away
I don't see it healing, for I imagine me not here

At least not anymore

So see, it does burn and leaves nothing to solve
but ashes of memories that will fade away

As that feeling of emptiness was here to stay

I have known your secrets all along
But I don't dare to follow doubt
For shall I fall into mysteries
I could lose what this has come to be

Nothing perfect nothing bad
But just enough to catch my eyes
Where did you come from?
Where did you go?
Those are the questions I don't behold
Nor shall I dig deeper
Nor shall I loose sight
Because somehow I've become attached

Missing moments
Missing lives
Atrocious clusters in my mind
Desired emotions wasted on count

Countless necessities on strangers behalf
Giving a deal, making a bond
Becoming closer in others eyes

Nothing perfect nothing bad
But just enough to grasp my eyes
Where did you come from?
Where did you go?
Those are the questions I yet don't behold

As I want to let go
Of something that never belonged

Even in the darkest colors I yet see our faith
Of many promises that now have faded away
When hope is what glimmered throughout
The glance of our eyes
Lies of the unspoken shattered the hearts
It seemed pitch black just before every sunrise
Where it felt so lonely and cold to each touch
The fragrance grasped in a memory still lost
But yet remembered in the last of thoughts
As the darkness lit into the lightest skies
All I could do was zone out in the blue
For every morning I still think of you