I want to thank you  
for the immeasurable pain
for the nights spent
crying, shaking, remembering
your touch
your breath

I want to thank you
not because you brought me any good
nor gave me any pleasant memories
but because your evil made me
rethink who I am
down to each individual cell
and because of that
I am stronger than I have ever been

I want to thank me
for my unleashed conviction
to pursue my own liberation
in each breath I take
my happiness
not necessarily in spite of you
but because my worth has been
burned into my soul

so thank you
you beautiful *******

life changes in a second
not in a day or a year
but in a tick or a tock
everything you know is different

it may take you years
to understand the gravity
to see each imprint
that moment had on you


but after that heartbeat
your life will never be the same
and there’s no longer a choice for change
because it’s already happened