I remember everything as if it was yesterday
when i first saw you , love at first glance..
when i turned to look again , our eyes met..
I found myselft gazing on your bambi and slightly mono black eyes..

As i reminisce...
when we first talked , i got lost in your eyes ,
your flamingo pink lips , your spring-curly hair
and your indescribably magnetic scent..
seeing you on that skateboard, flashing smiles as if they were meant for me to drool over ,
i slowly went head over heels for you..

As i reminisce...
Me knowing you , or at least i thought i did..
midday till night , verbal elation , relaxation and conversations so deep it felt like i have known you for so long..yet we only met a few hours ago..

As i reminisce...
that starry night at the park , first time you put your arms around me..a touch as gentle as the brush of a butterfly's wing and your lips against mine like galaxies colliding..
As i reminisce...

All i require is peace
i desire to preserve my sanity
but my demons won't allow me
i'm detereorating to nothing
but insanity..
a series of calamities
going through my brain
dark shadows and screams of agony
paint a picture
if you can imagine the pain

I shut my eyes tightly in vain attempt to
hold back these waters
i'm a butter little too late
as they have already crossed the eyelid boarder
and flow relentlessly
... curled up in a corner
it feels like mental torture
paint a picture
if you can imagine the pain..

beside me , lies a once white handkerchief
now crimson
one can't really tell the original colour of it as it is drenched with blood , parts of it diluted with tears..
i try to say smile through the *******
but.. happiness and pain will never cohere
especially when the pain is severe..
paint a picture..
if all of this sounds clear...

Love is.. well..
we all know how the story goes
glances at each other , she's ephemeraly treated like a rare rose.. she lets him in even though she's been torn like an old blouse left in the cold..

Promises are made , honeymoon phase , smooth pace.. Love is a helpless romantic , with a series of chances , first comes magic then comes sadness , i know it sounds tragic and love will leave you nostalgic..

Don't we all wish that love had a trial run
so you know what you're jumping into
cause love is anything but simple not like poppin a pimple..

You will never know what you're tryna get into
in order to keep it , you give it your all , you give it your all , including your temple
cause a person's motive will forever be sinful..

this has never been told..
like money , love comes and goes..
feelings fade like the colors of worn out clothes..
the truth is hot
the truth is cold..
if you want love..
you gotta be bold..

                    - M i y a g i ♡

I zone in , i zone out
im in a state of distress
my anxiety is a mess
but im still caught up in your love..

day in day out
seeking answers , what i did wrong
where it all went astray..
for days i felt numb
i now knew how Cinderella felt when the magic was all gone..

They say if you love something let it go..
if you love someone set them free
but no one told me that

It's harder to heal
than it is to ****..

I still..reminisce.

             - M i y a g i ♡