Have you ever
Had that moment
In your life when
Everything went
Down hill
And you just
Wanted to disappear?

That feeling was
Every waking moment
For this girl.
Bullied for years
She never thought
She was good
enough.
Always thought
She was weak.
Always thought
She was a
Mistake.

Ridiculed by many
And by all
To conclude
She was
Nothing.
Justified by their
Voice.
She lived blinded
By memories
That haunt her,
Even to this day.
"Your not good
Enough"
Circled her
Mind
Becoming silent
Sacred to
Speak up
Knowing that
She's going
To be
Shut down.

So she
weeps
Without a
Sound
For her
mouth
Is sewn
Shut by
The words
"Go die"

You may
Think these
Words came
From those
People Who
disregarded her
But these
Words were
Her own

Controlled by
Madness
The torture of
Screams
Stress and
Suicidal thoughts.
She had come
To hate
Her life
To the point of
No return.
Scared of leaving
Marks and
Questions to be
Heard she
Said no to the
Razor but yes
to the nails.
The nails that
Grew long as
She wanted
And sharp as
She desired,
At the tip
Of her finger.
Easily to gain
She
Scratched
Away.
Slowly it
Bleed
Everlasting
Relieving pain
The redness,
The string
Let's her
Breathe again.

Even though
She wants
to disappear
And leave this
World behind
She has
To stay,
To endure,
So others
May live
their lives.

She hates
Her life
But if she
Died others
Will follow
For she
Helps them
Survive
To cope
With their
Lies.

A recurring dream
That only a Shadow
Speaks
"I'll give you a trigger."

What does it mean?
A trigger?
Will it give me a gun?
And become one
With the people
On the streets?

Those people who
Take the freedom
And abuse it.
Those people who
Control and sell
The living as
Things.

Yet no one
Stops them.
We pass by
Like it's accetable

We never pay
Attention
To things
Not about us,
But we watch,
Because misfortune
Excites us.
Makes us
Happy that it is
'Not us'.

We do not help
For we are selfish,
Passing by the
Scared
Without a care.
For it is our nature
To believe our situation
Is the worst.

We say we need
To change
Most fear it,
But others accept it.

We need a scene
To trigger an effect,

"I'll give you a trigger
Would you gladly accept?"