Xenna

Xenna Aug 2014

Tell the sky
" That your beauty
Will soon disappear
Into the abyss of sadness
And all you can do is cry for help,
But no one can help
Soon the tears will stop.
Enduring the pain you smile,
So colorful,
But the gray will
consume you again."

Xenna Jul 2014

Red or Blue

Red* or Blue
The bet is your life
In the stall you wage
The fear of choice
Controls you
You shall crave,
Death shall convey

Blue the color
Of your face
As you suffocate

Red the scarlet color
As you are sliced
And bathed
In your blood

Choose wisely
The wager is your life
After all

Xenna Jul 2014

"I'm trying"

"I'm trying"
Not to cry
When my worlds gone mad

When these tears start to flow
A plain expression is shown

"I'm trying" to change
Like many of you wanted

From standing up
To living each day like the last

The truth behind these words
Is fear
The fear of losing something important
Or myself

These tears have no control
They come and they go
But stay forever inside
Behind the words
"I'm trying"

Xenna Jun 2014

Depression hurts, but you're no help

I'll tell you a story
Of a girl who desired
All the pain to wash away
She tells you her problems, but all you say
"Don't think that way"
Being told is not advice
Even though she agrees,
She cries.
You wonder why she feels this away,
But all you do Is stand and stare.

She thinks you don't care,
But you do, do you not?

Those four words
Don't help anymore
But shows her the way
To ending her fate.

Those four words don't
Guide her the way.
Telling is not saving,
But listening may.

Xenna Jun 2014

Untitled

I'm a closed book
You can see that I smile
But it doesn't show that I'm suffering.
The words that you spew at me,
Tears out my pages.

I desire to hide my existence
For eternity and see tranquil nothingness
But my world is covered in filth
Those monsters call 'me'
This world drenched fear of being unread,
And torn.

I wish for something to carry me away to a place
Where society doesn't brand you.
Where you are not alone,

My world awaits for my arrival within this hard cover.

Xenna May 2014

Smiley Face Scar

I have been hurt
Which left the memory
Of this bite
Which shows that I am
Your
Possession
This smiley faced scar
Is it not here from your love?
Is it here from your hatred?
The tears mix with the blood
Flowing from these open wounds
I might be hurt,
But like this scar
I'm smiling
For this won't disappear
And neither my hatred
For the thing that called me a object.

Please give me some feed back.

Xenna Jan 2014

A blind mans dream

Roses are black
Violets are black
Even though I can't see
I can still dream

Red
A gentle kiss
The music that makes memories last
Fluttering of butterflies in your stomach
When they are around
Such a loving and peaceful feeling
But painful
Of the stickiness that drips out when you are hurt
The reason why millions of wars
are fought today
bloodshed
The flames of burning passion
Flames of war
And love
For what you
Stand

Blue
A salty taste
Of vast waters
Drip by drop
it washes away your fears
But it comes as tears
Clearing away of pain
The water
Reflections of the sky
As the clouds
Swims in the ocean called freedom
Such peace
Such remorse
Such a calming voice

Green
The breeze of Mother Nature
Giving homes to the weak
And lost
Leading the way to the right path.
Even though we forget her gentleness
She stands strong giving life
To little or big things,
To our future

Yellow
A light of hope
Which stands at the end of the tunnel
Giving peace to move on.
Such a loudness but happiness
You receive from such a thing.
Warmth of star that shines up above
granting us the light for the dark
To see our path
We have taken.

Ohh I wish I can see
But I can still dream of such beauty