Fool.

I knew I shouldn't have.

Shouldn't have stood up
Tried too hard
Now I'm a joke and
A laughing stock

Shouldn't have listened
Shouldn't have brought
Now I'm an eccentric
Nut job.

Should have studied
Should have revised
Now I'm just another
Hypocrite

The end is nigh
I say "Goodbye"
Hope the wind blows
These debris behind.

Far far away

And never to be


Remembered

Tremors and aftermath
Resonate through the soul
Toppling confidence
And shaking foundations
Hectic mayhem
Everyday

Deadlines to meet
Marching ever closer
Preparations to be done
Finishing? Well, almost
Never

Efforts paid
Going up in flames
The smoke covering
The living daylight
And also suffocates

Raiders and robbers
Stealing what's dear
Taking everything away
Killing hopes and dreams
I am starting to fear

Seven days
Seven twins
Maybe fourteen
Or more
They come and go
On and off
Much as I wouldn't want anyone
To know

The seawall held together
By a single thread
Of sheer willpower
Waves slosh
And threaten to spill
And the thread strains
To hold

Life is a game
A very big one
A betting game
All the same

You either take it
Or let the opportunity
Pass you by
Hoping for a better one to come along

What if it doesn't?

You either gain all
Or lose all
Nothing in this game
Is guaranteed

Well.
I think that warning came
A tad bit late

We must not forget
That curiousoty
That Childhood
Innocence
We must never lose
That inner child

All that innocence
Is just an illusion
A beautification
Of a twisted
Ugly
Truth

It falls apart
Eventually.
Everything does.
Everyone does.
It's just that

This break came
Early
And now that
Little girl

Is long gone..

So many things
And so little time

Things keep piling up
Higher and higher
One after the other

The year flew past
Way too fast
Now I'm grabbing at everything
To maybe slow it down
But no

Activities back to back
Literally
Day to day
There went one week of supposed
Rest
There went one week of supposed
Preparation

With the recaping and recalling
Just noticing:
The modules still aren't
Done
Adding adding adding on

Help is leaving
In one day
Protection is leaving
For two weeks
Still can't get the questions done
I have yet to clear
This pile

Hello test
Howdy music
Four days more
And the race begins
Through and through
My time is short
Yet I have to compete

Then comes
The End
It's too quick.

Everything's
Too quick

Even after
The End
More is still
To come
One after the other

I need more
Time
And then here I am
Scrabbling in the dark
Wanting to melt
And disappear

And all I want
Is a day
Off
To do absolutely
Nothing
Without having to
Worry about
Anything
At all

Just one day

The more familiar
The figure,
The easier for me
To sketch

I find that rain
Is a heavenly thing

It can wash away
All the pain

It can wipe clean
All the troubles and tension

It can relax
The mind, body and soul

It can make you grin
Like you were five again

Splashing around in puddles,
Turning your face to the sky.
Breathe in the smell of rain,
And feel the drops on your skin.