The pile
Just
Doesn't
Diminish

Never fear
My dears
Though skies may seem
Gray
More than
Most of the times
And all hope seems
Lost
The weight
Dragging you
Down

You can always
Put it down
Throw it all off
And shake yourself
Free
Just for
A little while

Look around
At the brighter side
Of life

Gray stormy skies?
Why,
Dance in the rain
And splash in the puddles
Keep looking out
For that
Rainbow

A boring, dry
Walk home
Same old view
Same old path
Why not look closely
And see if you can spot
The occasional
Song bird
Or little lizard
Or maybe even
The little wildflower
Growing among
Lush green grass
Ice cold water
Awaiting you at home

Sometimes
Life gets tough
Life gets hard
Life gets tiring
But look
Look all around you
I see amazing people
Amazing friends
Who have stuck together
All this while
Through rain and shine
We're all in this together
We'll get through
We'll survive
More than survive
Keeping each other company
On the long journey
Sharing laughs
Sharing tears
Sharing pain
Sharing smiles

Even if it's
Hard to
Just try
Try to take a look
At the brighter things
In life

The path is coming
To a fork
The end
Is nigh

All the time
We’ve spent
Together
The memories
And the laughter

Just a few months left
Decisions springing up
At every corner
Time
Running out

Leaving me wondering
*What to do??

Sometimes
I wonder
What on earth
Am I here for
Why am I here
Why is everything
Happening
The way it is

How are we conscious?
How do we think?
How do we feel?

And then it hits me
Everything boils down
To chemical reactions
Electrical impulses
Atoms and molecules
Interacting with
Each other
To form a larger
Picture

But if everything's
Just a composition
Of chemical reactions
Properties
Bonds
Combined with
Neurological
Electrical
Impulses

*Then why does everything matter so much?

There it sits
Waiting
Watching

It's a Yamaha
With a Union-Jack back
The last of it's
Kind

It's been a faithful companion
It came to me
When I was six
Not brand new
But second hand

Through all the tears
All the humiliation
All the pain
All the scoldings
All the belittlings
It stuck through with me
With sweat and blood
Shed on the keys
It didn't complain
When I threw
My tantrums
Banging the keys
Even kicking it once
Or twice
It just waited
And watched me
Till I calmed down
And felt
Stupid
After
I practised
Everyday
And not once
Did it
Complain

It has a really bright
Crystal clear
Sound
With this certain
Energy
And depth

I took great pride
In taking care of it
Polishing it
Every other day
Till it shone
Like a mirror

As time went by
One grade after the other
The practises became
Less and
Less
I didn't care for it
As much as I did
Before
A year passed
Then another

Now I'm fourteen
It's twenty eight
Or more
I've had my share
Of performing
On stage
With all types of pianos
But there was this
One thing
That was different
With my piano
Something it
Lacked

The sound is there
The energy is there
But somehow
When I compare the recordings
My dear piano
Just sounds
Tired...
The touch stickier
The keys start failing
On some days
It sounds
Muted
Always slightly off key
No matter how many times
The piano man comes
This is one patient
The doctor can't treat

Is it possible
That emotions
Can be transferred
To objects?
Has my raging
Over the keyboard
Tired it out
By having to
Express
What I play
And what I
Put
Into the pieces?

It's a piano
Of memories
Of thoughts
Of an inexpressable phenomenon
Called feelings
"Where words fail, music speaks"
I salute you
Dear piano
For allowing me
To express myself
Through the written pieces
You help
Materialize

We have grown together
Walked this long journey together
And with all the memories
Sweat
Blood
Tears
That has made me today
I won't part with
Till the very end,
Dear piano

So shall we continue?

Not sure if I'm right
Not sure if I'm thinking too much
But I'm just gonna wait
And sit here
To observe...

Why does winning
Matter so
Much?

It breeds jealousy
Disappointment
Pride
Hate
Inferiority
Superiority
Frustr­ation
Determination
Annoyance
Bitterness

Can't you just
Admit
You lost
To it?

It's just a game
After all