I’m afraid to touch things because of the stale smoke I will leave.
I want to warn people, and say don’t touch me, because I will stick to you like melting candy.
I feel the sadness saturating my bones like a steak sauce,
and the droplets of water I collect on my fingertips are all I have left.

You’ve been forgotten more times than a dusty old library book and I can tell you’re getting sick of it.
You said that we should just calm down but I’ve already counted to ten as many times as I could.
Clean sheets can’t help us forget the past anymore,
and we’re all shoveling the dirt away as fast as we can to see what problems we’ve buried.
We’re all ripping the bricks away as fast we can to see what walls we’ve built.

I’ve been drinking distilled water for months now and I still feel waves crashing against the inside of my body.
The inside of my mind looks like what you’d find underneath a turtle shell.

I don’t care what god put you here because you have every right to follow the trails of any dream you’ve ever had.

I don’t care what god put you here because you’re going to find someone who has lips that fit your’s like a puzzle piece.

And I don’t care what god put you here because the butterflies in your stomach can speak any and every language that has ever been exchanged by words, touch, or eye contact.

Look at your left hand.

Fold your left pointer finger
with your right hand
thumb.

Your number has finally vanished from my recently contacted list.
I don’t know whether to be proud or disappointed beyond belief.

I look down to find stains on my favorite shirt

I wake up to find period blood staining my sheets

I look up to find that you are staining my life

Stop,
I need more time alone
So I can wade in the creek
Softly step through the sand
Figure out why I hate myself.

Wait,
Before you go,
I want to apologize
So I don’t feel so bitter
In the years to come.

Please,
I think I might need your help
Because I don’t understand why no one’s hand fits in mine anymore.

No,
I’m sorry,
I can’t tell you why you’re afraid to close your eyes in the shower
And I definitely can’t tell you why it’s scarier for me to.

I’d give up my mind in order for you to keep yours.
I’m getting to the quiet hiccup before the sob,
But the sunlight isn’t too bright that I have to get up and close the blinds.

When I get this sad,
I feel my arms begin to fall asleep.
I feel my legs begin to fall asleep.

Pull your cheek away from your face and exhale
And when you begin to sound like the wind against the trees,
Remind yourself that you are your own enemy
But you don’t have to be.

Sail out to sea
with the late night yawns
that cause your mouth to water

You speak to me
more than a divorce on Valentine’s Day
or a suicide on Thanksgiving

Sincerely,

Maybe if I repeat the same words
Over and over again
I won’t be so afraid to stick my feet over the side of my bed

I don’t know how else to beg you to leave my mind as quickly as you came back to it
So I figure you’re just supposed to stay there

I can't help but fall in love
With the certainty in your hands
I can feel you in my veins
and
I just want to know if we’re losing hope again or if we’re just hoping that we are

The last time I saw you,
You taught me that people
are still afraid of the way
their shadows
look