chels

chels May 2013

sour

i am broken glass shards
spread out across the
tiles on your
kitchen floor do not
step on me

i am empty plastic water bottles
crinkled up
with lost white twisting tops
do not step on me i am
cars speeding down your little neighborhood's one lane road i am
accidents on highways
slow down as you pass me

i am bug bites and zip ties
swollen joints and peach fuzz bruises - orange and green and purple, beautiful
but
soft and
i am cracks as deep as the lines on your face and on your soul
i am picky eaters and temper tantrums
don't stare
we are attracted to blue flames and the sounds of
keyboards clicking
in the dark

chels May 2013

hum

Play my body
like an instrument.

Play my ribs like a harp,
my spine like an accordion.
Play my nose like a whistle.

chels May 2013

Sea

I am sorry that I
           pulled
                      and
                            pulled
until it hurt to move your feet apart anything more than six inches

I am sorry that I pulled you in
only to push you away
and leave you
with a knot in your stomach the size of
                                                                           canada
I did not mean to pull your stitches out and
open a glass case full of ghosts and
leave the sugar crystals stuck between your teeth I am
not who you thought I was I am
moonshine
under
moon shine and I am
a trigger warning I am a
trigger warning
trigger
warning
Don't forget about me

chels May 2013

rain

i am rain
             pounding on your roof
                 let me in let me in
                                                       i just want to say hi

chels May 2013

where is my innocence?

Is it something I have to buy?
Or do I have to wait in line for two hours,
And collect it like welfare?

Last time I checked,
We still had countries that sell daughters off
At the age of 14.
Was my innocence taken away from me?

A hundred years ago,
I would have been married with five kids by now,
And I would have had a husband who
Didn't really love me.
Do I have to earn my innocence?

I've been trading souls with people for the
Last three years.
Maybe by accident,
Did I take someone else's innocence?

chels May 2013

I am calmer when I don't wear a watch.

I am calmer
when I do not wear
time
on my wrist.

The seconds do not tick past my skin,
like they do when I wear a watch.

I have enough time to become the waves of the ocean;
rays of warm sun against backs sitting on hills with friends.
I have enough time to learn how to love people,
and love myself.

I am limiting myself. We are limiting each other.
We do not have time to sit around
and calm down
because we're always pushing ourselves to the next spot.
Place.
Time.

chels May 2013

we are all gods

pick my brain and blame me
blame me

do not tell me anything
because i will overthink it
to the point where i think i took a breath at the wrong time

i am the worst nightmare
of every child who has parents that fight in front of them
i smell like campfire smoke and regret
dark basements with tiny bathrooms
full of regret

i am night
i am night
i am the past coming back to haunt you i am
broken fingernails and pulled hair and i am
searching
waiting
i am waiting for you to be alone so i can
pick your brains and i am
god i am god
i am god