the endless nights with tears in my eyes
wishing you"ll come back with your arms open wide
the fear of abandonment
was so close i cried
"your nothing"
is something I've heard many times
the cuts and bruises I've endured
is nothing the way you made me hurt
these constant memories that i love
is something i don't deserve at all
these lies that i  haven't told
is what hurt me the most
I've tried so hard to make you believe
that those words weren't me
i cant stand this for much longer
until i don't belong here.

i feel so suffocated
its like the walls are caving in
its getting harder to breathe
gasping for air
the slow of my breathing
its like I'm not here
feel something,
feel anything
why ant you feel something,
numb
i cant feel anything
i look at myself at the mirror not knowing who i am
who am i ?
what have i become ?
i hate myself

I'm drowning,
i scream and yell for help
but it seems that everyone has gone deaf
and there unable to hear me.
why can't you hear me ?
please save me...